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So I had this shallow crush for this guy a couple months back just to get over my other crush. I rarely talked to this one just admired him. Then I got over my other crush after a couple of days. I told this guy after a month and a half that I had a crush on him. He told me he wasn't concentrating on love until grde twelve because of his lacrosse scholarship he wants and he wants better grades in school. His close friend (who is a close friend of mine from 11 years or so now) told me he isn't into dating really. I got over him a bit after singing an insulting song about him for a week. Then subconsciously I kept looking in cars while I was in the car wondeeing if he was in one. I got back to liking him and I think I was just trying to fool myself before. Whenever I sleep I dream of him. Whenever I see his name on Twitter or his picture I melt. Whenever I hear his name I jump a bit and get butterflies even when it is a different person with his name. I walk down the streets and look around to see if he miraculously will walk by my area. I wonder where he might live. Whenever I am ontop of life I think "haha I don't need him" but apparently I do if I can't stop thinking about him and when he is the first thing that pops into my mind. When I see a lacrosse stick I am sick to my stomache. Everything reminds me of him, even when I was eating poutine and I remember he told me that was his favorite food. What is going on wih me? Am I just an obsessive frightening stalker, or am I inlove? I am not known for being obsessive, and I don't think of anything innapropriate so its not as if I want him in that sense. I am known for being sweet and small and cute and kind so I don't think I could be a stalker. Any help please?

You trust people you think they are honest but they are just liar
You finally meet someone but he is not available
You dream your dream job, at the end you stuck in office life
You want kids like a crazy, when they grow up they don't care about you
Isn't it crazy? Is life sometimes ridiculous?

Ok so I have a dream, a dream I plan on chasing I just dont know how or whats going to happen. Im in my senior year of high school after that I plan on working for a year to save up for my dream school in a big town thats about 18 hours away from where I currently live, aftwr that I will chase my dream job.

The problem is if I want to save up enough money for college and living expenses for when I go to college Im going to have to be working two jobs (which I dont have a problem with) but I will also have to be not paying rent. Right now I live with my mom and her bf. I would just stay here and work untill I have to go to university but there are a lot of problems with that. First my mom is very controlling, she tries to control ever aspect of my life and I would need to be living without her before she would feel she didn't have any control of where I go to university anymore, also my moms bf is really controlling aswell and they both emotionally abuse me and its hard to stay positive in this house. There energy suckers and I dont feel like I can achieve anything when im in my house. They alsp eat really unhealthy which is impossible to find healthy food so I have no choice to eat bad things which I wanna change. I wanna clear my soul, mind and body and I know I can't do that in my house. I could live with my sister who lives in the same city but I think she would be somewhat controlling as well plus she eats bad too. And the last option would to be to live with my dad but he lives far away and although he's postive and healthy I would feel lonley because no family and I doubt id find many friends in that small town.

What do you guys think would be the best fit? This decisions crucial for my future, if I mess this up I could mess it up my future down the road. Should I just stick it up in my home town or go to my dads and have noone but him even though he's never home? Thanks for your opinions, greatly appreciated