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Even on this website I feel awkward asking this lol. But I guess I'll give you guys some "signs" and a really nice story. Well, we met this year, in Orchestra class and we connected really quickly when we compared the music on our Ipods (corny I know XD). From there he started giving me CDs of music to burn of cool bands and then I gave him some in return. We then started talking on Facebook and eating together at lunch. At first our conversations online were funny and light- hearted but then we suddenly started talking about more serious things and sharing our "deepest" secrets. I guess we became best friends pretty fast. We don't do much without each other during the periods at school we're together, if I disappear he'll look around the whole school to find me. We sit incredibly close to each other and when we walk together in the hallway we're so close that I can feel his leg touch mine sometimes ( just so you can visualize that lol). We've been trying to do things out of school, and he doesn't care who comes as long as I'm there, and he wouldn't mind going places alone with just me. He doesn't touch me like at all though, he touches other people, so I don't know what that is. He loves to make me laugh apparently, because he gets so crazy and whenever I laugh he has a grin on his face. He has said to me before that he really likes every aspect of me, and he would never want me to change. Uh...Yeah, he talked to me EVERYDAY of winter break before he went to sleep, and sometimes he stayed up even longer to keep talking. Our mutual friends keep asking us if we're going out because today, my friend asked him where his girlfriend was and he automatically assumed she was talking about me and told her that he was looking for me too. I kind of like the way he looks at me sometimes, kind of like eyes of adoration, but it only flashes for like a second and then it's gone so I don't know if I imagined it or not. I don't know, I've never had this close of a guy-friend before so I don't know much of anything, I might just be weird...Help please? :D

OK I might be sharing too much information, but girls will understand when I talk about this a little more. My sister, cousin and I had originally planned for the 3 of us to have lunch and then go the aquarium. I got my period the day before and felt exhausted. I hardly had any sleep the night before. I act stupid/cranky sometimes if I don't get enough sleep or too much to eat. Also, she has been dating this guy for a few weeks and wanted to introduce me to him. I wanted to meet him eventually, but didn't want to meet him right away, because of my cousin and wanted to get used to the idea of my sister dating again, which is still kinda strange for me for some reason. She's 25 but has hardly dated because she's a pre-med major and hardly has anytime for anything else.

Anyway,I woke up at 8:30 on a day that I could have slept in. I told my sister I wasn't feeling well and felt really tierd. I wasn't awake enought to tell her that I felt like I was gonna drag/slow down the group. She thought I was just kinda blowing off the thing cause I wanted to sleep in. I wanted to go see my cousin so I got up and made myself go. Anyway I felt really out of it in the morning. Tried to keep up good spirits for my cousin, sister and to meet the guy my sister is dating. I ended up telling a story that made my sister look bad ( I was meaning to make another point but didn't). I also told him that I have dyslexia and was why I wanted to be a teacher , when he asked. I ended up saying that we thought that it runs in the family and that my sister might have it too. I didn't think that part was too big a deal.

The worst thing I did was when I misunderstood my sister's date when he asked if we were close thinking he asked if we argued a lot and I said no. which I feel terrible about we are really close. My sister ended up telling me about that on the way back. anyway I feel really bad about the whole thing and apologized.

I know this will blow over, but this is not the first time I've done something like this to someone close to me and I can't help to think what is wrong with me that I keep on doing this. to people who care about me?