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So, me and this girl have been friends for years. We've been through thick and thin togeather, but we aways push through no matter how mad we make each other. We feel very comfortable around each other we can talk about anything and I'm the only person she's herself around (not even her boyfriends have seen the full "her"). She looks at me differently than all her other guy friends the look in her eyes is softer and more caring. We don't hang out much outside of school (I'm too nervous to ask), but we talk a lot in school and mess around (I'll tickle her on her sides, and she'll giggle and then glare at me but not angry glare, pretend to slap me, or just come up to me and put her hand on face and ask if they are cold). She laughs at most of my jokes even if it's just a discrete smile. Now for the questionable: she knows I have some feeling for her but she avoids the topic as much as she can never really wanting to talk about it and I'm not sure what this means. There are times when she'll try to fake slap my arm and I'll grab her hand and squeeze, and she'll begin to squeeze back but stops halfway and I'll let go.