Search Results: getting mad at boyfriend

1. When a guy ask me out I assume he wants more
2. I get defensive quick, my first thought is cheating, failure or abandonment
3. I can talk openly and have deep conversation, but if a guy shows interest in a romantic way I freeze and run away I avoid conversation about it
4. Too scared to be sexual, cause I caught feelings for my friends with benefits and he didn’t want me in a romantic way (I am celibate because of it. Have been for years).
5. I am loving, witty, caring and open.
6. I love dates, but I don’t want to date I just want the guy I am supposed to be with sent from the heavens. And not do the work behind finding “the one”.
7. I can be unavailable emotionally and cold
8. Don’t like PDA or getting physical with anyone.
I love being single, love my freedom but I get lonely more often than I can count on two hands. And everyone around me are in love (friends and family). I am happy for them but I often look at my hopeless situation.
7. I feel bitterness towards men
8. I haven’t had the best experience with men. I have been sexually harassed/raped, my dad cheats on my mom all the time since I was a little girl, my first boyfriend left me for someone else, was in a abusing situation and my friends with benefits hurt my feelings.
9. Reading and hearing about men doing women wrong makes me explode even more, especially dating today and how gross we treat each other.

I am ready to shake it all off and start trusting again. I have been single for four years. I can’t keep up with this sad love life. I have used my free time on myself and I have found my passion (self discovery). I am not ready to fully commitment yet even if I miss the intimacy the most (I am still young, and enjoying life), but I am done being mad at men. They deserve better and so does my soul.

Advice?

First off me and my boyfriend have been together for almost 2 years now
In the 1st year, he let me know his password to his phone, laptop and tablet

But then one day he caught me snooping around his phone and I kept asking him questions about what I found on his phone (e. g. messages to his friends about one of our arguments)
Then he got mad at me that I was snooping around his phone and he automatically changed his phone password
And he never told me his new password till this day
I let it go

But recently I kept asking for it but he says to me "nah babe you're not getting my phone password, we both need our privacy, i dont want to see your phone and you dont need to see mine"
And then i replied "ur definitely hiding something from me then, you're probably talking to other girls"
Then he said "omg wtf, i have 2 jobs, i dont have time for another woman in my life, and plus women are drama, you're full of drama already, why would I want another woman full of drama too? I dont care about women anymore, I only care about my career and you, thats it"

Is this a bad sign?
Is he full of shit?