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We knew each other 2 years ago, and we've been each other's bestie for almost 18 months. For uni, each one travelled to a different country a year ago. She's literally the closest person to me, and so am I to her. I had feelings for her a few months ago. She once gave me remporary hope when she told me she had feelings for me because I was the first guy she knows but those feelings are already dead now. She kept mentioning relationship stuff, and she strangely felt that I like her. One day I flirted with her as I usually do in a humorous way, not becauseI like her. She literally told me "I don't accept flirting anymore because I feel something with your feelings, and I don't wanna give you hope while I'm not ready. If it was someone else or someone I'm interested in, I would have accepted it." I got triggered a bit, and I understood that she doesn't wanna give me hope because she's never gonna like me or something, and I always relate it to my height (5'5"). Today, she told me she has feelings for a guy for a few months til now. She asked me about how to approach him and whether it's right or wrong to start a relationship and other friendy stuff. I was being nice and helped her a bit. She hasn't told me his name yet, and I don't think it's me. The reason why I didn't tell her directly that I like her is that I'm not ready yet to start a relationship because of many reasons, and the main one is that it's too early to know where I'm gonna work after uni, how my life would be, and whether it's gonna be stable since I'm studying in another country than her and than me and her live.
I know when I get stressed, I think in the wrong direction. I want people to help me figure out a solution to me problem.
I don't know whether to tell her everything and that I'm not ready for commitment&give her the feeedom to decide what she's up to, or to avoid dealing with her at all and end all this, or to just wait til I'm ready for commitment and tell her everything and that I'm ready.