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So since our breakup in April we have still seen each other. We have continued to have sex. Our bu I did not see coming things were great but he was closed off bc he was struggling to get a job and then said he felt like we were not growing which I didn't think since he would tell me how much more he was falling for me. Anyway through this whole time we have still done things. At times he would say for us to stop bc it was unfair to both of us but we have always continued. This happened quite a few times. The last time it happened was a few weeks ago where he invited me out for his cousins birthday as a freind he said. He said he was not interested in anything else right now and he wanted to know if it was ok. About a week or 2 later it did not last. We saw each other and of course had sex. He is always compassionate and loving with me and I always spend the night. We get along so great. I still think somethings there but not sure whats going on. There is obviously a connection on every level. This week he has been better at texting back too and I told him I hope he was having a good day. He thought it was interesting that I asked that out of nowhere. I also just asked him to hang out this weekend, so we will see what happens. I still love him and I feel we still have something and should try again, it just feels like a roller coaster. Why the constant back and forth

When Alarah met Xander, it was brief, however with each day passing, the more they saw one another and the more their eyes lit up in each others presence.
Xander was rather an unhappy man in his "marriage" even though he loved his wife, however.

Alarah brought out the very best in him. Made him feel confident and desired. How attractive that is, in a woman, and boy did he know it. However, "sex" was his main goal. So he asked her if she had wanted a one-night stand but her response was always a suttle "no". Alarah was definitely attracted but she learned how to respect him and his wife and though she wanted him she had to stand up and put her foot down.

Of all qualities, Alarah admired Xander's honesty, and him being straightforward, his protective instincts and this made her start falling for him, very quickly. They almost reached the follow through with the one night stand but they both talked themselves out of it.

It was on a steady night, Xander allowed himself to kiss her and she allowed herself to kiss him back.
The kiss started very slowly and as their lips pressed against one another, a few seconds went by, and Xander became excited. He moaned a "mhm" and shook his head in approval. To at which the kiss ended.

At that point, Xander lost all control.
He had to kiss her again, as he did and wanted to take her to bed. "Come, on." he urged. Yet Alarah, still denied his effort.
"Not, yet." she spoke softly.

The nights after became the change.
They no longer looked at each other, smiled or flirted with one another. Their silence spoke volumes Alarah no longer understood.

As for Xander, he allowed himself to come over one time to give her company knowing nothing were to happen. A deep story was told that brought guilt and sadness within him, he had to leave.

Alarah wonders, on her own now. As she realizes everything is different. He no longer comes over, he no longer really speaks to her through social media, he has become absent.