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This disappearing act is killing me. Great night together, deep conversations about how he's thinking about me being there, sweet banter and amazing conversations and finally have sex for the first time then bam... pulls the dreaded disappearing act. Usually after a couple weeks he starts talking again. He acts like nothing happened but we get closer. He opens up a little more, communicates more. He’s not introduced me to family, introducing me to his friends isn’t a reliable marker because I’ve met them already. Usually he’s very affectionate publicly, casual contact, watches me, eye contact very intense because dang he sees everything and the most honest man I’ve known. We talk about everything from nothing really to world issues to deep personal information. But when he does pull away he barely looks me in the eye and man that distance sucks. It's now going on a month. Unfortunately I don’t always handle that we’ll which I believe causes him to be absent longer. Thing is neither of us are in a place to be in a relationship. He’s not sure he ever will and I’m in a major life change. Which doesn’t even matter to me because I enjoy him on all levels right this moment, enjoying being in love. I’m focused on today. While yeah a relationship in the future would be nice (who falls in love thinking oh I hope he doesn’t fall in love with me) I absolutely am good with our progression. How do I tell him that and show him I’m not worried about a relationship in the romantic sense today, that I just want his friendship, to speak his mind and understand that the ignoring thing is a serious issue for me? That it wouldn’t matter if it was him or my sister, it messes with me? That I’m really not needy or clingy that just telling me don’t wanna talk really is all it takes? That I would like for him to remember that I’m more than understanding when informed? How do I communicate this to him in a way that he doesn’t feel defensive? At times I blurt the wrong thing out