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My friend and I are in one now. He's told me often that he loves me and hates me at the same time. We have super hot crazy passionate fights about twice a month about little things and then we make up. Our friends are always talking about the tension between us.

The tension was too much for me so I finally told him to kiss me while we were hugging in my car. He refused because he has a gf but said he did want to kiss me. He said if he were free he would kiss me but for now we keep giving each other intense stares and argue. I tried to explain to him that we fight like this and push each other's buttons so easily because we have feelings for each other. If we didn't, we wouldn't be able to affect each other so strongly, hence the love/hate.

I was reading about belligerent sexual tension, which seems to fit our situation. The tension builds till we break it by fighting or me trying to kiss him, we are pissed and I swear I'm done with him for good and then we make up. It's like we can't stay away from each other.

He denied ever flirting with me but apologized for leading me on. While we were in my car he was fine with me tickling him and then we were wrestling hard over his seatbelt. He was trying to use it to keep me away and we were grabbing each other's forearms full strength to try to dominate each other. He's so into drama and during our last fight he made a scene in front of our friends announcing that my hug privileges had been revoked! He likes to withhold hugs to punish me and it seems like we're always in a power struggle.

I can't decide if I want to keep this cycle going or just stop caring. He says he has feelings for me but he's still with the gf until may, when we graduate. I could wait or just stop caring. I was going to just be platonic with him but he keeps up the teasing, dagger stares and fighting, so he must want it to continue? He's still touching me as well, so it's not like he was grossed out by me coming on to him.