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My girlfriend of 4 years from out of nowhere started dropping hints that our relationship wasn't what she wanted anymore, and only a few days later she was breaking up with me like the last four years meant absolutely nothing to her.

Here’s the catch. As I started deleting her messages, erasing all the pictures of us on my phone, and removing myself from all the things we shared (Netflix, Spotify, Amazon Prime) I went and saw the most recent purchase she made on Amazon, and I kid you not it was lingerie... just five days after the day she broke up with me. So clearly this means that A) she didn’t break up with me because “things weren’t working out” but rather because she was interested in being with someone else and B) She is either already having sex with someone else or BEGAN having sex with this person and then decided to break up with me for her guilt.

I've tried so hard to just let myself get through this suffocating heartbreak without texting her and telling her everything I want to, how much I hate her, how I know the truth and that she’s pathetic for not being honest with me.

Do you think she deserves to hear all of this from me after our break up? Or is it simply just not worth it?

So some background: my girlfriend dumped me about 3 weeks ago for couple reasons. I'm clingy, obsessive, and have a drinking problem that caused me to become rude and argumentative to her, family, And any innocent bystander practically. Since the breakup, I have been sober and have attended AA weekly. Immediately post breakup, I screwed up and begged for a second chance. She ended up blocking me. After a few days, she unblocked me on text and snapchat. We have been talking and hanging out. At first, if I tried flirting she would get upset saying I'm crossing the line. But lately things have been sliding. She has crashed at my place multiple times. We either have sex or we cuddle all night. In the mornings when I leave for work I get a kiss. Yesterday, we went shopping at the mall and she let me hold her hand while we walked (I instigated). One concern I guess is she has kept me a secret from friends and family. She says they aren't huge fans of me due to how I handled the breakup and being a drunk, so I guess I understand that. Last night after shopping, we were playing Xbox and she casually threw out "you're my boo." I mean that's not really something you throw out, right? I want her back, And don't want to ruin it by rushing. Is she dropping hints she does want to get back together? Or am I just overlooking pointless things?