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So whenever I lose at anything... whether it be a video game, a game of soccer, a drawing contest, a cooking contest, a running contest, etc... on the inside in my head, I just go completely nuts. I get so sad, angry, and depressed all in one, like you would not believe.

Luckily, I don't show it on the outside much... except for video games, on there I write derogatory things to the opponent, since it's online. But not when the person is actually there with me in the same room.

This is most prominent in video games, since there I play against 100+ users daily... but just whenever I lose in general, I go nuts on the inside. If it matters, this is more frequent in Super Smash Bros, since that's the game I play most.

But that's not the worst part about me... the worst part is the reason WHY I get so upset when I lose.

The reason I've been able to pinpoint is that I'm a madman who only wants power, a superior rank, and to be perfect. And whenever I lose... it shows I'm not as skilled, or powerful, or as perfect as I wish to be.

And I don't actually care for the people around me, which is why I'm so bitter on the inside when losing. I don't play to have fun with them. I play so I can show I'm the best. To show I'm perfect. To show I'm a winner. And whenever I lose... it just crushes what I hoped to acheive. And if I was physically strong enough, and the police didn't care, I would honesly punch whoever beat me to death.

Now the reason why I'm like this is because growing up I was always insecure and ranked below my peers in every way... I was meek, I was weak (both physically and mentally), I was really shy, I was too nice and afraid of saying no, people always took advantage of me, etc. And I also ranked below them... I always lost, I didn't have as much cool clothes or cool technology, etc.

And as a result, somewhere in my early teen years, like 13-16, I just got sick of it, and just wanted power and perfection more than anything.

My ex dumped me a month ago for being clingy, obsessive, and a drunk (I had a drinking problem caused a lost job, a crashed vehicle, and losing her). After the breakup, I made mistakes of begging and crying for another chance. She wasn't having it so she blocked me (twice actually). Skip down the road and we have been hanging out and occasionally sleeping together. Last week we were laying in bed and she said "You know I still love you, right?". Since that moment it was like we were dating again: kissing, cuddling, sex, dates, saying I love you's, the works. She did state though throughout it all that she loves me, but wants to be single for now. She also admits to talking to other guys, and having slept with two guys right after the breakup. She doesn't tell these guys off when they flirt with her and ask her out, so it gets my anxiety racing. I try to keep my cool and not let her know it bothers me. But i did have to tell her "I will fight for your love, but I won't compete for it." Lately her words act like she loves me and wants to be with me, but her actions don't quite. We have been together every day and night the last week hanging out playing video games cuddling kissing etc. But she stated two of her exes have come back into her life and they both want to date her and she told them basically they have to try harder. I asked today "so if they try harder and prove to you they're different would you give them a chance?" And she said yes. I then asked what about us and she said well it depends on where you and I are at that time. She claims she doesn't want to play games and hates games, but it sounds like that's exactly what she is doing right now. Is she toying with me keeping me around until someone better comes along, or does she actually want to be with me? I'm keeping this question strictly to girls because guys can be d***s with their answers. Thanks.

state of decay was a really cool gaming concept to come to the xbox, but it lacked co-op so it lost replay value. state of decay 2 fixes that but so far it looks like it may just be the same game all over. just wondering if anyone was still getting this game? my copy should be delivered on release.

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