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Hi friends,
I saw a girl when I was 16 and found her too cute and I wished if I can spend rest of my life with her. But I knew that it was impossible because there were no chances that we will even talk to each.

Coincidentally we met when I was 22. That was totally coincident, I never ran behind her not even behind any girl.

After that we were friends for next 20 months. In those periods I proposed her and she told I don't have any feeling for you (she told this because earlier she had a break up with a guy after that she had not had any trust on love) but you are very nice guy so I would like to spend my life with you.

That time we were doing our bachelor course and decided that we will talk to our parents regarding this once we will get a good job. Those days we were living very happy with each other and she was also very happy with me and she always used to tell me that I have never seen a guy like that (I don't have smoking/drinking habit also I don't have any girl in my life, I am intelligent in study).

When our graduation completed, next day itself she told that this relationship don't have any future now we should stop here and after that she stopped talking/texting to me.

First one year I was totally disturbed, I attempted for suicide I send her so many mails (she changed her number, she blocked me on FB).

Now it became 3 years since then but still I have same feeling and pain in my heart. I belong to a very good and reputed family. I have decided that I will not marry anyone other than her.

My problem is that sometimes she comes in my dreams and also sometimes I miss her too much and cry and feel too much pain in my heart, that time I feel like to commit suicide.

I don't know whether she will come back in my life or not but it is my believe that she will sure come back and I am waiting for her eagerly.

Please help me but don't tell to forget her, I can't and also don't want to do so.

So, my dreams often continue where I left off from another dream, this is about the 6th one but I'll give the back ground. I was with a friend at his house. I was with a girl who was cheating on her boyfriend with me. The boyfriend found out and bludgeoned her nearly to death. He escaped and she lay beaten and mutilated begging me to take her life. I killed her, crying. I was worried and didn't know what to do, then my friends mom came home and in what I guess was an action created from overwhelming stress, my friend killed his own mother with a bat (I always had a thing for his smoking hot doctor mom and still do). We were both like fuck fuck fuck what do we do? And decided to bury both the bodies separately. I rolled the girl in a carpet and threw her in a lake and my friend buried his mom under a tree. Now for the dream last night. I was over at my friends again and the police came, they questioned him but not me, he didn't reveal any information that was incriminating. I went downstairs where my friends sister was, and she was looking into a glass window of a cabinet and in the reflection was the ghost of her mother, trying to tell her how she was killed. I watched hoping to see, but couldn't read her lips. I woke up shortly after. Any ideas?