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Johnny is 18 years old. He has a girlfriend named Olivia. Johnny tuned down sex with her several time. Olivia goes through his phone and sees he's talking to a girl named Sophia and he gives her answers to homework. She bursts into the bathroom while Johnny is peeing and screams Johnny! Are you fucking cheating? Johnny says wha- what are you talking about? I'm not having sex with anyone! Yes you are she screams, then who's this? And shows him Sophia on the phone. Johnny, you no good sack of shit!!! Johnny says get out, I'm still in the bathroom she screams no, you explan to me why you are talking to her! I'm helping Sophia with her homework, is that a problem? Olivia keeps yelling and screaming at Johnny, she kicks hits him, punches him and calls him every name in the book. She even grabbed his penls violently. Johnny bites his lip and says nothing.

A week later, she made Johnny some water and told him she was sorry. The water tasted funny and after a few hours of being outside with a bunch of kids, Johnny felt his stomach twist and turn, the pain was insane and he could barely make it to the bathroom. He had to leave early. Johnny nearly cried because he was so embarrassed. He avoided her for four days so he could calm down but they still stayed together. He bought her a nice new dress, kissed her, hugged her and even let her see and touch his private area even though he really didn't feel comfortable with her doing so. She was so happy and smiley and Johnny felt happy as well.

Hey I should probably start off by describing myself a bit. I‘m a 19 years old girl from Europe. I‘m about 5'4" tall, have dark eyes, long darkbrown hair and pale skin. I would say I look pretty average but I always try to put effort in the way I look to look presentable for my family and boyfriend. My family raised me pretty strictly because in our family good manners and education are very important.

Now to the problem:
When it comes to emotions people describe me as cold. I would love to say that this is not true but often enough i find myself avoiding to get emotionally involved with anyone because I was disappointed so many times before. This also includes my boyfriend. I absolutely love him but I can‘t feel it. I often try to show him how much I love him but I feel like I always fail because of my general behaviour around him.

When we go for a walk for example I absolutely hate holding hands or when he puts his arm around me. I prefer linking arm or keeping them to ourselves. I also don‘t like kissing in public or any sort of PDA like cuddling when we wait for something. When I see couples that do things like that it seems repellent to me.

My boyfriend sometimes hints that he doesn‘t understand my behaviour but I don‘t know how to talk to him about it because I am scared to hurt him.