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let's say you are both 33 years old and have two kids together. A girl and a boy. Your husband is very shy, and often looks at you like he's going to cry if you yell at him or you guys have a heated argument. He has a 5 inched penls and barely knows how to please you in bed. He kisses you, cooks for you, and he does most of the cooking, cleaning and diaper changing because he enjoys it. He watches po*rn and jerks off without you knowing at night. He looks at other women, rubs his penls, while thinking of you and other woman, one time he had a wet dream and has a accident in bed, he looked at you with fear in his eyes and said sorry in a soft voice. He also used to bathe with your daughter named when she was 3 years old.

I don't catch feelings easily. But when I do, it's one big tsunami of emotion.
I can't just go out to a night club and start seeing a guy I just met and kissed. I can't just start seeing anyone. I need to have a bond with them, I have to know them personally first. I just don't feel normal because I don't know anyone else like this?
I don't really get into relationships because of this either. And sometimes when I do have a crush on a boy, I start to question "is he really worth it?"
I feel like I am too picky or something, but I don't want to be with just anyone.
Most of my friends are in relationships, most of which got into from meeting a guy for the first time.
I feel really distant in this area of relationships among my friends because I feel like I just can't relate.
When I happen to make-out with a guy on a night out, I don't enjoy it... I feel nothing, it's like I'm numb almost. I'd have to really like and trust someone and know they really like and trust me to really enjoy it.
I'm 17, at my age there's movies & TV shows all about how this is the best age of your life in terms of relationships but I just feel the opposite. I do want a relationship and I do want to enjoy myself but it's hard because of this. What do you think?