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I want a boyfriend but I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want anyone to touch me ever. I hate the feeling of anyone touching me. But sometimes I do wanna cuddle and stuff but I hate being touched at the same time. I'm pretty evil and can't be nice 24/7. I'm honest AF 24/7. Which can seam rude. I am not mean when it comes to physically hurting unless you start. I don't like humans they are disgusting and evil and I'm better than most people because most people are fake. I'm also evil but the difference is that I'm evil to evil most people are evil to nice. I am planning to die alone. And leave my fucked up family. But I don't know about the die alone part. I do get attracted to guys and want a relationship but I can't be close to anyone and I hate touching. As soon someone gets close I back I can't be in a relationship they are all fake. I used to be nice but traumas changes that. And also I would kill my partner if he cheated on me or tried to kill me/rape me. But I would like to cuddle and stuff sometimes and them not touch at all sometimes it's so confusing.

Obs! And don't suggest therapy or psychology because I've been to like 10 of them and they all sucked. If you do you will be blocked and your comment will be removed.

Him and I flirted and made out. Said he didn't want a relationship cuz we'd have to be apart for school in a year. I ask to be friends he says ok, and not even two days later flirts with me again, being really caring, using heart emojis, being super sweet and missing me. Boi gets pissed cuz I post a pic of us somewhere, people started sharing our photo and assumed we were dating cuz the caption had a date. (The day I gave him a drawing I used 11 hours to make) I just meant it as a picture and nothing else, but I also told him I do like him, but he said he didn't wanna break my heart and sounded vulnerable, but then I told him I only liked him and wasn't in love with him or anything and he seemed annoyed/ confused, and that's when he started getting really mad and then ignoring me and gave me a sarcastic comments about how I was pressuring him to be in a relationship with me.

All I did was draw him a picture and post it. He is the one who keeps the drawing in his room, showed his friends, walks around the school with me and stops us with his friends and his brother/ his brother's friends. Says he likes things lowkey yet literally everyone sees us together and I haven't seen him walking around like that with any other girls. Tried to avoid me in the hallways at school but 2 days ago I was in my friends car and my friend beside me told me that the guy was on the sidewalk with his friends and that he was looking straight into our car (2 separate times). Now he's trying flirt/hookup with other girls; I've never slept with him. He's listening to 1) Without me -Halsey 2) Now or Never- Halsey ( about not wanting to fight, the person to love you right now) 3) Illenium- Down with me (it's about how a guy is super screwed up and doesn't wanna drag down the people he loves with his mistakes and how they should let go of him and not try to fix him and that he doesn't wanna break their heart) He usually only listens to rap so his music just made a 180 turn. Please explain.