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Let's just say that I'm aromantic asexual, I don't want to be married or have kids at all, but my parents are threatening to donate all of their assets, worth upwards of 10 million USD, if I'm childless. So now I've convinced myself that I have to have kids no matter what, one way or another, even though I'm probably not qualified to be a parent myself.

You might have seen my posts under the name VNMC. The truth is for the past 6 months I have been living with my grandparents, basically after I graduated from univ. I have extreme social anxiety and I convinced my parents I would prepare for exams for higher studies while being with gramps though that was BS, I just wanted to avoid getting a job so i could avoid meeting people. Till my third year of univ, I had a great life and was somewhat outgoing but it all changed in my final year. I got caught in the toxicity of the internet and became extremely self conscious, I started realizing the importance of physical appearance and I was extremely ugly back then-bad skin and had tanned too, tired eyes from not sleeping, unibrow etc basically typical cringe looking indian guy and when I thought about the bullying and treatment from girls I liked till my high school days, i used to have coping mechanisms before but I realized later the truth. Being aware has made me go a long way from there physically but I have extreme OCD, BDD and always had tourettes which got worse now. The last time I went out was mid December when I went on a date with a girl I had met on tinder (and then too I went out for real after some time with a lot of courage) and she well, rejected me for a second which made me even more self conscious and I haven't been out since. All I have in my room is a study, my laptop, a bed and an attached washroom. My life is just being on these forums, eating my meals and sleeping, nothing more than that. Its 3:30 am here and its really gotten to me over the past few days what a loser I am

This wasn't a question but a confession, put it in mytake but no one reads mytakes

I liked a girl, and still do, but she was unable to date me. So, in order to convince both her and her parents that I am good enough, I decided to better myself as a peraon. In order to thank her for making me want to better myself, I drew her. She does not know that I drew her and I want to give it to her. Also, I had planned on using this to start a conversation with her and therefore be able to hang out with her more often. However, some believe that the gift is to personal and that I should get to know her better first. What should I do?