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I was doing okay alone. I feel a bit lonely sometimes, and tried to go out with new people and give them a chance but there's no attraction. I feel like if I try to date people, I will just be empty to them, I can't give them any love, because I don't know anyone as good as my ex, or anyone who I was as close to. We basically lived together because I saw him everyday and now he's dating someone new so its very painful. I want to be in a relationship too, and he wants me to be happy, but how we broke up was more by pain and exhaustion than that we ended it because we didn't have the energy to be our best to each other anymore and he tried and thought he failed and I tried and thought I failed. He got really easily agitated or annoyed and I got really depressed. I feel like I've only been having 2 types of guys around me since then :guys who are nice to me who I have no attraction to, guys who I'm attracted to and get along with who are taken or otherwise unavailable. I feel really lonely if I continue to cave myself in and lingering on my ex and not being open to new things but I've been double burned. I liked this friend of mine and he said he liked me too and we got along well and hang around a lot, but then he had sex with me and it wasn't because he wanted to be with me, he just wanted sex. He told me that later, not before. I feel kind of betrayed by everyone, including my ex who was still talking about making things work and then a few weeks later he was sleeping at some girls place already. Like I don't know who to trust anymore. I can't sleep with my friend anymore even tho I'm lonely and want to just feel close to someone, because he doesn't care about me that way and I lost the person who did care about me and loved me the way I wanted. I feel sad my friend was using me because he wanted to have sex and saying he likes me and later explaining and excusing himself that he meant like a friend and he was drunk. I really hate all this, I'm super depressed and can't live like this and don't feel like I'd be a good girlfriend to anyone atm, don't feel like anyone could love me that I love back. Its not negative thinking its just the pain from the breakup. I feel betrayed and its so hard to find someone who suits, because its about lifestyle, and getting along, and attraction, its hard to have all those things togethers close to. We basically lived together because I saw him everyday and now he's dating someone new so its very painful. I want to be in a relationship too, and he wants me to be happy, but how we broke up was more by pain and exhaustion than that we ended it because we didn't have the energy to be our best to each other anymore and he tried and thought he failed and I tried and thought I failed. He got really easily agitated or annoyed and I got really depressed. I feel like I've only been having 2 types of guys around me since then :guys who are nice to me who I have no attraction to, guys who I'm attracted to and get along with who are taken or