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I was going to ask a different question, but then I realized that it would have too many details (not many people like reading paragraphs of text). I'm just going to shorten everything. If you want more details, feel free to ask.

* In 7th grade, she slammed the door in my face and said I was wasting her "precious time."
* She once told me, after a long day, that she had wanted to abort me. My father is the reason that I was born.
* One day, I came home from school and broke down in tears. She asked me what was wrong. When I explained (that I was being bullied), she gave me a very bitter look and ran off to work.
* In August, I had my first major panic attack. It started with a question: "What day are we going to my registration?" She instantly yelled at me and went off about how I think she's neglectful (I DON'T, those are her words). I started hyperventilating and my body tingled. For an hour, I cried uncontrollably, while she yelled at me over and over. She gave no regards to my emotions and only talked about herself. Finally, she ran off to work again, leaving me to cry in an empty house.
* Yesterday, I had to wake her up early, because I had a field trip and she said she'd drive me to school. It took 4 calm attempts to get her out of bed. I shook her shoulder lightly and explained to her that it was time to leave. She yelled at me on our way there and called me a bitch over and over. "Your sister's a bitch and I don't need you to be a bitch." "Dry your face!" "I haven't done anything to you! I just yell at you." Those were some of the things she said to me repeatedly. Every time I managed to stop crying, she said something awful to me and the tears fell again. I had to pull myself together in front of over 60 students. Nobody seemed to care.

Yesterday, she also left for a 5-day trip to a wedding in Texas. I won't see her until Tuesday. I feel so alone and unimportant... Is she abusive, or is it normal to feel this way? Also, what should I do? What CAN I do?