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We have been in a relationship for 3 years we have a 1 yr old son together. This man is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life but my actions in the past didn't prove that. Over the period of our relationship I have cheated on him over 100 times. The last time being the worst. He went to jail and got sentenced to 6 months right before our son was born. Our relationship already wasn't the greatest before he went to jail but Over that time I tried to "move on" the day he got released we was arguing and I was mad so I told him "I found bigger and better" the same day I decided to go back home and make things work. Ever since things have been horrible.. he has become insecure about his size even tho he is not small he think I lurk for "bigger" our sex isn't the same no more he feels like he can't satisfy me no more
I tell him he does and that's the truth but he just doesn't believe me and my actions in the past don't really prove nothing. I love him to death and since he got out in Feb. Of this year (2014) I have been loyal and haven't cheated on him but that he doesn't believe neither Bc I am an exotic dancer. He told me during an argument yesterday that he still loves me but he has no choice but to hate me because of what I've done to him I was his first real love and I broke his heart to pieces. I guess my question is will there ever be hope for our relationship? How can I change what I have done? Will he ever be sexually secure with me again? What can I do to better our sex life? Will he ever be happy with me again? Help I really need opinions. I am ready to move on and stop living in our past I want a family with him and i can't say that I will ever give up. He's who made me ! I need him ! My status right now -im in love with him... his status-he completely hates me.. we still communicate everyday & were still somewhat sexually active.

Started seeing each other again (his doing) but fell into old patterns because he has problems defining the relationship. it seems like any time I bring up something related to that he closes way up. I know he had a bad experience in the past. the last time we talked about it I couldn't get a straight answer out of him about what we were doing. I know he really likes me because he has come back to this a few times already, after long periods of time, and he told me it was because he missed and cared about me. but when things are 'on" with us I don't hear from him nearly enough, I haven't told him that bothers me, but that's just because he hasn't let me get that far in talking about what we're doing. again, let me stress his really negative feelings toward long term relationships. we both know we have a really really good time together, that we are compatible, and I know he sees me in his future some how because if I say anything about never seeing him again he gets really upset. however, after trying to talk to him about it I called him and I didn't hear anything back for 24 hours (which is unlike him) and when I called again the next night it rang twice and went to voicemail. I texted him telling him not to call, I need to figure my own things out, I haven't heard from him (that's probably why I guess?) anyway I've never met anyone I have ever loved as much as him. I am worried that when I call it will be bad, or he will just ignore it like he did the other times (or was he just putting off the conversation) I don't know. all I do know is that he really does like me and has come back before. I really feel like this can work if he would only just talk about it with me, but it's hard to see this from a guy's perspective, why he is acting like this?