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I've been quarantined in my house for a little bit now, im not sure how long exactly since every day just feels the same as the next. im only 14. I've been to walmart twice. i have an amazing immune system. my mom won't let me go anywhere because we live with my grandma. she almost 70 and has health issues. but, i have depression (not fake 'depression' but actual diagnosed depression. feels weird that i even need to clarify that but tumblr kids think depression is edgy and quirky now. so.) and i hate being alone. i guess im not technically alone, as im at home with my grandma, mom & brother, but i can only tolerate them for so long. i love them but family can get annoying... i dont even know why were "quarantined", since apparently you only need to quarantine if you been around other people (crowds). i haven't for a while, i went to walmart but barely anyone was there.

i just feel lonely and i feel super overwhelmed when im stuck in the same place. i dont even have my phone right now, im typing this on my laptop. i just rlly miss my friend and want to see her. mom says if i go to her house, my grandma could die. i get what she's saying, and she's right. exposing my grandma to the virus could increase the risk of her getting sick and dying, but she's really clean and basically just stays in her room all day. my friend is a clean freak and so are her parents, and thats just how they usually are. its probably worse now that there's this worldwide hysteria. i just think i should be allowed to go to my friend's house. I've been home with no friends to even speak to for a while now and i have no one to talk to.

i just think theyre being overdramatic. my grandma would be safer at her sister's house anyway, bc her sister never goes anywhere and is stocked up on stuff, and is also a clean freak. plus then gma wouldn't be around a nasty 7 year old, not to mention me and my really clean mom. they think i just dont want my gma around but thats not true, i just am dying to see my friend.

So there's a site where you ask questions get answers. Many of them. This one site I had started to get suspicious this guy I liked was low key stalking me from it asking anonymous questions. (one reason being he would suddenly be only as soon as I got one at all hours. So could be 3am could be 7am could be 12pm hundreds of them lined up)
But so I got an question recently asking who I liked now this was a little weird because I think this past month was the first time I ever mentioned on my other social media I had a crush on anyone.
Anyway this person I don't think will ever make a first move on someone they really liked without proper reassurance they would not be rejected due to their own issues.
So I think barely anyone knows about this profile nor do I really care if they know?
So I figure I don't really have anything to lose admitting this thing that's been plaguing my life for 4 years.
No I really have no oppertunies to even talk to him. This is a weird uncommon situation