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I'm a sophomore, quiet, no friends, social anxiety, basically a giant loser. I was planning on going through the school year without getting involved in things like relationships or whatever, but on the second week of school a Spanish exchange student caught my eye. He was shy, smart, nice, and cute. I had no (still don't) expectation of him even noticing me, much less talking or getting feelings for me. I tried to write him off and ignore him but I began to notice him staring at me at times (probably because I'd cast a few lingering glances his way and he's thinking, "Who tf is this creepy girl who keeps looking at me?") and we talked on three occasions; the first he asked if we could both review our goals for the school year (had to review them with three different people), the second I gathered up my courage and asked him questions about studying abroad, and the third he came over and shot hoops with me for a minute.

I'll admit, I was beginning to get my hopes up that maybe a crush liked me for once, only to have him ask a girl that is better than me in every way (pretty, popular, nice, no hard feelings towards her) with this really cute sign that said "I came all the way from Spain to ask you to Homecoming". I'm really happy for them, they're both great people, but I admit I may have shed a few tears in the bathroom during lunch (pathetic, I know).

Later that day, during English, I was feeling much better and talked to my teacher about studying abroad (she'd worked in Hong Kong and I've always wanted to study abroad). My crush was listening intently and pulled up a chair. I caught him staring at me with his mouth open (cue moment where I was embarrassed of how ugly I am and felt bad at him for having to look at me) for a split second but quickly looked away. I haven't looked at him at all after I found out other than a few side glances due to me not wanting to come off as creepy. Do I even have a chance? I'm pretty sure I don't.

So.. I received a following request on Instagram 2 days ago from a profile without any photos or a name and I'm 100% sure it's my ex boyfriend who I split up with 2 months ago. The profile (which he has deleted yesterday) was following only 35 people with mainly girls he's 'friends' with on facebook.. My gut instinct isn't lying you guys. It was him. So I declined his request and a few hours later he deleted the account. I don't have facebook or anything, only Instagram so he has no idea what's going on in my life right now. Was he simply trying to check on me? See how I'm doing without wanting me to know it's him? So why do it with a fake profile that makes it very obvious who you are? Lmao.. Does someone have an idea? Every little imput is appreciated.