Search Results: always questioning me

Okay so there's a lot to jam in here so let's get started
- Met Freshman Yr
- Dropped out and moved after 5 months
- Got her number before I left and kept in touch
- Stopped talking for awhile but she got things started up again with a text I got around 2-3 am
- Spent the following 3-4 years texting what felt like almost everyday
- One Valentine's we were texting and she told me "You know me so well"
- Didn't think much of it and dismissed it by saying I have a great memory (I Do)
- I supported her career choice and always told her i'd be there when she makes it
- She's known I liked her but its never been awkward or got in the way of our friendship
- Really got to know her over time or at least I hope I did.
- Started opening up to her when my grandma passed away this past September
- Neither of us were ever looking for a relationship and still aren't
- She started trusting me more even asking my opinion on a few pictures (Slightly Big deal since she's a REALLY Shy girl)
- Always supported her when she struggled with her shyness but neither of us ever talked about our problems it was always more of a good luck I know you can do it type of thing
- This past year has been the rockiest with a lot of personal things going on in my life and my chase for success. Thats when I started questioning our friendship
- First time we worked through it
- Second time was bad timing with my personal problems. Told her we should end it because its as if were only friends to kill time

A lot more I can put in here but not enough space. I need to know:

- If this can be fixed
- How can I show or say I'm sorry showing I really mean it (already apologized)
- Should I just give it time?

She's a great girl with a big heart. I hate the fact I said hurtful things to her after her being such a sweet girl this whole time.
I just want her to know I'm sorry, and that I'd really like to have her friendship again :/
Where is thus friendship at and where's it going