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My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 6 years now. Well, it might soon end... Anyways my question is why is it that everytime i try to start something with him he either blows me off or keeps saying wait hold on. Yet he wants it at any given time, even when im dead tired after work. I think its very unfair. Also he never lets me go down on him. He tells me that i never do anything and finally told me im terrible in bed... 😑
First of all he never lets me do anything!!! I don't understand why. I feel crappy now because i feel like its my fault when its not. This whole time im the one who feels so unwanted that i go out of my way to try new things and i get automatically shut down. I don't know if he expects me to be a pro or something when im not allowed to do anything. He tells me thag there is no more spark or fire between us, even though im the one always trying to set up some kind of get away or date. I never understood how you can tell someone that they are perfect and how much you love them and do this bull. I just dont know what to do. I feel like I've been with a child who thinks its okay to break it off like once a month just because he gets mad. People ask how I put up with it, and i guess i just love him that much and believe that people can change. But 6 years is just a long time. I need some advice. Should i still fight to fix my relationship or just let him have his way and leave me... Again? I've tried just moving on but he comes right back within 2 weeks. And yet again i fall for it. I want to be with him but im tired of being treated more like a friend. He has changed me so much. He tells me to act like a lady but how can i when he doesn't treat me like one? We are both leaders and clash a lot so we fight but he's the selfish spoiled brat who doesn't understand how much he can really hurt someone.