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So, I always compare myself to other girls who are either prettier than me or smarter. Growing up I always saw myself as the ugly, fat friend and my friends as prettier, beautiful, sexy or more intelligent than me. When I was 11 I was confused on why someone smart and cute would want to be friends with someone like me. I knew that I wasn't nearly as smart as her and as we got older she only got smarter and even more beautiful. As teens she always looked better than me in comparison. Lol her personality ( according to everyone) is more likable and down to earth than me so everyone always wanted to be friends with her and preferred her over me.

Even now, I kinda want to look like another person because she is labeled the prettiest girl in the world according to the Internet. I find it kinda disturbing that I felt that way because she was called the prettiest girl in the world but I thought that if I looked like her then maybe I'd have a better life.

I also saw a story about a 22 year old girl that got shot by her thug boyfriend. She knew this guy was a killer but tried to cover up his crimess. She was 22, still lived still lived with her parents, and only had a GED. I found this so strange. I am 18, around her age, about to graduate high school, move out my parents house and already have a job lined up. I felt like I was more advanced than her and she seemed sort of delayed in a way. I think she is just slow and not as smart as me. Is it bad that I think this way or is this normal?