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I love my boyfriend so much however his negatives outweighs the positive

Positive
- He loves to kiss and hugs me tight every night
- He is a good looking man
- He can cook well
- He is good in sex
- He picks me up from work (only sometimes) when we stayed together - He says he is serious about me and wants to marry me
- people says we are both good looking and a good match
Negative
- I caught him in the house sleeping with just some random Stanger girl who he just met in online dating site
- I caught him having so many condoms and lubricants. I wonder where he use it when he never use them to them. We always have unprotected sex. He said it's just a gift from his friend.
- Some chatted me about him. It looks like she is spying and only to find out that sometimes my boyfriend sleeps at her condo in another city. She said she is just trying to help him because he is homeless and they are only friends. I don't know if she is telling the truth? - I caught him chatting many girls. I wonder who are they. He said just investors. He wants to build business but don't have money - he ask me to loan 1m but I don't want and he insult me saying useless
- he ask money and food from me if I can't give he gets mad at me and insult a lot
- he gets mad when I hold his hand in public
- He rejected me many times in sex

He moved on right away, this girl looks like a less hotter version of me. She’s his type, but not enough to make me scared that I could lose him forever.
recently he started to be nicer to me. We talked on the phone for 1hr. he's late or ditches work to talk to me. He said he still loves me and that it won’t ever change. He did mention us getting back together a couple times but I’m just not sure if he means it
I took seeing him with another girl very hard because he lied to me about it when I asked him. I wanted to die and he knew this.
Im doing better now & he sees how happy and confident I am again. I told him I can’t imagine my holidays without him & that I forgive him and still love him & want to apologize for hurting him. he said he loved me back.
I do want him back but if we do get back together, we need lots of changes. should just completely forget him?
Background info
-two years and both still loved each other at the end
I broke up with my ex 3 months before he officially moved on from me. We were still acting like a couple but didn't have the label. He normally wouldn't stick around &try to be with a girl after she hurt him, but he did with me.
During the process of us dating while we were broken up, I hurt him twice pretty bad. I was honest with him about it. The goal was to create better habits, see if we had a future together & to get back together.
He was okay with this, or rather he was acting like he was okay with it until the very end.
We were very in love, we had our issues such as him being really far behind career wise, unmotivated, living with his parents & being needy
through dating other men, the love & to connection we had was something I would choose over money or success.
I’m 21, about to have an associates degree by early next year, he is 25 and still working with children, has No work experience elsewhere.