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So my 30th birthday is coming up and I feel a bit down about it. One thing that gets me down is I'm going to be 30 and still a virgin. Not just that but I also never actually had a girlfriend. Actually I never even kissed a girl. This makes me feel like some weirdo or a loser.

I mean I have gone on a few dates before but not many, less then 10. I have had a handful of women ask me out on dates but for the most part I would just turn them down since I wouldn't be interested in them.

I only asked out a few women myself, less then have asked out me. But the thing for me is I find I have to get to know a girl and become her friend before I start to find myself interested in dating her. So by this point they usually just see me as a friend or they have lost interest in me or they were never interested in me to begin with. That and I am just horrible at picking up on when someone is flirting with me or is interested in me, I just assume they are being friendly.

I like to think that I'm a normal, nice guy. But just had bad luck. That and I'm a bit of an introvert so I have trouble meeting and opening up to new people. I wouldn't consider myself unattractive and I have had many women tell me they find me attractive so I don't see it as that. Whenever anyone mentions my past relationships or sexual partners I just lie since I find it so embarrassing.

I'm curious what women think of a guy like me. Do they see me as weird and a loser? Would they actually have an interest in dating a guy like me or no? What are just their general thoughts on a guy like me? Any advice you have for me to help me change this situation I'm in? Give me your honest opinion.

I started dating this absolutely amazing girl in 2013. By spring 2014 we were exclusive with each other. We broke up at the end of summer because she was Mormon and I wasn't. Plus her parents didn't like me for that reason alone.
In November 2015 I reached out to her after a dream of her, and after telling me her frustrations about our break up, she said she didn't want me in her life. A few months later, she reached out to me and after a few weeks of talking again, she revealed she decided to go on a mission, and I confessed my love for her. She and I got into a relationship again and even discussed marriage but she said she would accept for real when she returned. She left in December 2016.
Because of her departure and the mission, she broke things off and kept trying to convert me. My Mormon friend said that she's just on a religious high, and things may change when she comes home.
She comes home in less than a month, and I sent her a letter in the mail to her parents house, which they likely destroyed, but a digital copy to the missionary Facebook account she has as well has her normal one.
I later had the idea to send a copy of the letter to her aunt who lives near me, and who also was one of the few to support our relationship. I never received the letter back, so I took that as a good sign.
But 18 months came and went, and that was supposed to be mid June she come home. I was heartbroken, and I thought I'd hear something.
I just kind of accepted it and tried to date other people, but last night I had this vivid dream of us reuniting, and I couldn't get it out of my head. So I got curious and looked for an update on her Facebook. Her old Facebook was unchanged, and I thought maybe she hadn't come home yet. I then found her missionary account and found she posted on the 26th of June she was going home.
My friend suggested texting her phone asking if she's home, and if she could call me when she does. (Her little brother had her phone while she was gone)

I started dating this absolutely amazing girl in 2013. By spring 2014 we were exclusive with each other. We broke up at the end of summer because she was Mormon and I wasn't. Plus her parents didn't like me for that reason alone.
In November 2015 I reached out to her after a dream of her, and after telling me her frustrations about our break up, she said she didn't want me in her life. A few months later, she reached out to me and after a few weeks of talking again, she revealed she decided to go on a mission, and I confessed my love for her. She and I got into a relationship again and even discussed marriage but she said she would accept for real when she returned. She left in December 2016.
Because of her departure and the mission, she broke things off and kept trying to convert me. My Mormon friend said that she's just on a religious high, and things may change when she comes home.
She comes home in less than a month, and I sent her a letter in the mail to her parents house, which they likely destroyed, but a digital copy to the missionary Facebook account she has as well has her normal one.
I later had the idea to send a copy of the letter to her aunt who lives near me, and who also was one of the few to support our relationship. I never received the letter back, so I took that as a good sign.
But 18 months came and went, and that was supposed to be mid June she come home. I was heartbroken, and I thought I'd hear something.
I just kind of accepted it and tried to date other people, but last night I had this vivid dream of us reuniting, and I couldn't get it out of my head. So I got curious and looked for an update on her Facebook. Her old Facebook was unchanged, and I thought maybe she hadn't come home yet. I then found her missionary account and found she posted on the 26th of June she was going home.
My heart and brain is literally racing and I'm scared. I'm terrified of losing her. I have tried so hard to not lose her, and I just don't want to. Help...