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(We've known each other for some months before we started dating. We're just casually dating and haven't even kissed). He told me I have a warm personality and I caught him staring at me regularly. Eventually my head was resting on his shoulder and he laid his head on top of mine.

When him or I were talking I would look at him and he turned his head and we would just stare at each other while talking. At some point we were just staring in each other's eyes for at least 15 seconds. One time he rested his forehead against mine. We were just sitting, listening to music and enjoying each other's company. We haven't even talked about wheter we like each other or not.

So I had my first break up about 4 months ago. The guy never held hands with me, kissed me, or even hung out with me, he just texted me romantic things saying that he wanted to kiss me and talking about his feelings and we texted a long time in the night and hugged everyday that’s it. Despite this, he was the only guy who made me feel special. And after only “dating” one month he broke up with me in a sweet way but through text. This hurt a lot because I was the only one who had feelings and for him I was just a joke he most likely used me to get a girl jealous that he liked for real. I felt so stupid and hurt because other people saw it and I didn’t, I thought they were just being mean. So This guy graduated but I am still in high school because I am a year younger than him. Even though this guy left I keep checking to see if he’s at my school even though I’ll probably never see him again which hurt me. It also doesn’t help that I’m alone a lot due to my social anxiety. I have cried way too much before. I spent a while that I haven’t cried about this but now here I am writing this with tears in my eyes. Also if you can help me how do I deal?