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I met my coworker almost a year ago and we really hit it off. We became instant friends in such a short time. As we became closer we let each other know how we felt about one another and we each felt the same. A few weeks after we met and became close I noticed he became kind of distant. Then one day he told me he had to tell me something. What he told me was that he had been in a long term relationship with a girl that he madly wanted out of but wasn't too sure how to do that. Of course I waited, until finally he got out. He then told me he doesn't want to be in a relationship right away and that's ok! Who am I to make him jump back in after he just got out. We stayed friends and hooked up a few times. Lately for the past few months we stopped hooking up since we didn't want to ruin our friendship. The thing is we still kind of act like we're in a relationship. We are super flirty and I tried getting over him. I just can't seem to. He's all I think about and all I want to be with. We don't want each other to be with anyone else. He's always telling me how much he likes me and I'm just here like " well what does this mean? Why are you telling me this if you don't want to be with me" if he wanted to be with me he would be with me but he's not. He's 8 years older (I'm 21) and he's my best friend. I don't want to be in a world without him in it. I don't know what to do anymore or how to take this. It's so hard.