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Cheating is a lot of work that’s just not worth the risk of getting caught. It takes a lot of planning, a lot of covering up! The lies to the other woman. The lies to your partner. When does the pleasure turn to guilt? As soon as you orgasm and reach for the skies.
For a year and half we didn't engage in a physical relationship. There was flirting and fantasizing about each other sexually when we were apart. We shared intimate details and were into each other. We both reached out to each other because, well I don't know, I remember telling him I thought he would care. He listened. It felt like he cared. One of greatest pleasures was the anticipation of pleasure. We both admitted that when I stopped rejecting him and gave into the sexual tension. Sex was an intense high. Five hours later we agreed to have sex everyday. He left happy! I was happy and ready and anticipating the next session. That was the one and only time we had sex.
He called the next morning. He came by picked up my laundry and we made plans to meet at 8. I got caught up with dinner at my best friend's place. He text me at midnight. It was a clear message. I told him we would go our own way. He let me go. I saw him the next morning at the casino. I won $300. I was with our mutual friend that contacted me and asked me to go. He wouldn't even look at me.
I found out a week later that he lied to me from the beginning. He was in a relationship with the the woman he shared a child with. They did break up when we were together. Maybe they got back together the same day he left my house after we had sex. That's what I believe. It doesn't really matter though. She's pregnant and due in May with a boy!!! He failed to mention that! It's clear he was reacting on the defense for self preservation, no regard to my feelings. Truth came to light.
Was it worth it?
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