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I've been with my current boyfriend for 4 years. We've had our ups and downs like most couples however when we argue, everything escalates and becomes such a massive problem that we nearly break up every time we do argue.

It happened the other day when him saying that it's a shame he can't get anything from just looking at a girl on the street. He had been looking in her direction and it brought up a lot of bad memories such as when he went on dating websites.

He then continued to shout at me and pressure me to talk back when i was trying to calm myself down. We don't live together, so he continued so much that i was in tears on the way home on the train.

He then later refused to answer my calls, saying how hurt and upset he is. Yet he won't explain how. He threatened to break up with me if i turned up at his house. Calling me names and then he was saying that i contributed to him cutting himself a couple of months ago. I know it wasn't my fault. But i feel like he's constantly shifting the blame for everything onto me. He refuses to talk through things with me and says i don't want to talk about it and just completely ignores me for days when it's something i didn't even start.

I think i've just reached my breaking point with how he behaves every time we argue. I'm the complete opposite and need to talk things out to fix them, i make so much effort to be calm with him and he just continued to shout at me via texts because he won't pick up my calls. All of this happened yesterday and now i'm not sure if i should contact him.

I'm not even entirely sure what to do anymore, I want to stay with him because i love him. But at the same time he acts like a child. He refuses to live with me yet strings me along by wondering what our kids will look like?

Should i try and contact him to fix things, or should i wait it out and let him break the silence first, even though i told him to never contact me again