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A couple agreed they would get married in the future, it happened sort of fast (never good) but for religious reasons and sex... one day the guy (Sam) says he never wants to marry) and never have sex... he explained that he had fears and said because the girl would have to choose between love and money as Sam works a very busy and maybe dangerous job but the girl accepts sadly and tells him she will give other men a chance... but not long he goes back to calling her "my love" (his love). Sam got blue-balls when he saw her and asked for help (she was reluctant). She is talking about the relationship and he says maybe he can marry her, but she thinks he is emotional and not honest. COVID/corona starts 19. Sam isn't working but busy. She learns that Sam's father got covid19 he is at hospital. . She meets another man (let's call him John) online who has romantic interest in her (only 1 week of talking), she accepts all the arrows from John because she wants to marry and something serious. Sam has Corona/COVID and says he will die. She is so sad, and they confess the obvious love for each other... he becomes better and video calls her as soon as he reaches home, saying he missed her … she knows Love is not always enough, but wonders his intentions. A few weeks pass and no contact from Sam and during the time forgets about him to focus on the more serious John. Sam has Corona again and was in hospital. First day home he contacts her. She decides she needs to question Sam. If he wants to marry her, she may accept because she loves him. But because of COVID she never had the right time to ask him... So what about John? She doesn't want to make John sad. John says he loves her (but it can't be "true in love".. it is only a week and they are texting. She loves John but not in-love. time is an obstacle.. maybe John will wait. She feels truth is best but thinks John will feel hurt to know she is giving another guy preference over him.