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I'm turning 26 and thinking about "settling down" but I've always seen that term used when someone fucked off in their past and now want a real relationship. At least on the internet that's how it's described.
But I'm a virgin waiting until marriage, I've never had a girlfriend and never even been on a date, and here's why.
When I was younger I never had an interest in dating, I had other hobbies. The people I went to school with only dated just to have a temporary place holder so they don't look awkward, and I didn't agree with that. I saved dating for the future and decided to spend my younger years working on myself and my career.
I'm pretty conservative, I believe in traditional gender roles, I want to be the main provider of the household and would prefer a housewife/stay at home mom, although she doesn't really have to be. It seems impossible these days since the average American family income can't even afford a basic living, but I wanted to go against all odds and became a self employed day trader and I'm working on my real estate license.
Now I'm turning 26, I make enough to support a family with my income alone, recently got a mortgage on a nice big house with a white picket fence (had to have it), got my shit together and everything. Now I think it's time that I find a young virgin conservative girl who's also waiting until marriage to settle down with so we can one day have kids and have the nuclear family we dreamed of.

When I was in high school my American History teach always said "hate is taught" when we were learning about slavery, Jim Crow South and Emmit Till.

I actually have to agree with her because of what I've experienced. So here's my story:

My first step dad was a drunk with a history of drugs and was sexist and racist, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING, no I'm not talking about the dumb SJW terms of sexism and racism, this guy was a REAL sexist and racist.
He would say things like "these (n words) should have went back to Africa when they had the chance, but they decided to stay and fuck up our shit" and "most women use men for their money and fuck (n words) behind their backs" and "all women are sluts and whores" and "most women will sleep with at least 100 (n words) before settling down with a white man who's actually worth a damn, and even then she'll have gangbangs with (n words) behind his back.
When my mom finally decided to divorce his ass, he refused to sign the documents, so my mom decided to start dating other men after a couple months of refusal. She started to date black men ironically enough. When she did he became very mentally and emotionally abusive and would call my mom things like " a dumb two-bit sperm burping
(n word) loving whore), and he would demand sex because they were still legally married since he didn't sign the documents and said it was her "duty" to have sex with him. After the divorce he took everything and left my mother and her 13 year old son (me) with nothing and we were homeless living at my sister's for a bit. He even took things my mother inherited from her own parents, including my grandmother's bed and my grandfather's tools.
Although it's been 7 years since I've talked to him and I'm a grown man now, having a shitbag like him being my "role model" during the most influential time in a child's life (age 5 - 13) I still tend to get uncomfortable around women and black people and I struggle with my sexuality.