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About a year ago i reconnected with a friend from school. We'd stay up til 3/4 just talking. Midnight drives. And obviously we got close as we have a lot in common. Well the problem was he had a girlfriend. And one of the drives we admitted we had feelings. He'd come to me with his problems in his relationship as she isn't the type to deal with emotions, angry a lot and abusive, his grandad recently passed so he needed someone to talk to. Things escalated (just once) and we felt bad so he told his girlfriend and we stopped talking. well a year on i met a new guy, been together about 4 months. And we are happy when we're together. Its just his family. They make snide comments which irk me and then we argue. Or my dad makes comments about him not driving, or when he was unemployed causing more arguements. Recently the ex came back in the picture to talk which has pissed my boyfriend off even though he won't admit it. With all the arguments i have been happier talking to my ex as he was there through a lot of my family problems. I can't talk to my boyfriend about them as he brushes them off or about my depression as his mothers convinced him without my tablets ill go psycho. Well its gotten to the point that my boyfriend will pick arguments to wind me up as 'he finds it hilarious' then make passive aggressive comments about my ex. My ex has been nothing but nice to me and has made it clear if i wanted to make a go of things then he would. I feel guilty about thinking about it but im not sure what to do? As he's still got his girlfriend he says he'll leave but he's said it all before.

So me and ex boyfriend dated for about 5 months and it was an Online LDR. I thought we would break up and I wouldn't fall in love with him, but turns out I did... He has a girlfriend now and we broke up 2 months ago.. We've done the no contact thing and we ended up missing one another. For a week, we've been skyping almost everyday but we don't constantly text which is good... Yesterday, he finally admitted that he's dating that girl which i'm not surprised by the way. So I asked him why don't you just Skype her every night? and he didn't answer but told me to shut up don't mention her. I asked why? and he said because it ruins the moment we have together. I was like okay.. wtf. I told him that he shouldn't Skype me from now on... because he tells me he loves me and it's just cheating. I asked him if he would like it if his new girlfriend did that to him and he said no. It hurt when he said that.. I just couldn't take it anymore.. So i told him, we can't talk anymore and he said is this really what you want? you want me to leave? and i said i think you should leave. Then he was like no don't say should. Tell me what you want. I told him I don't want you to leave, but you can't do this anymore; it's cheating. Then he was like so you're telling me to go? I told him yes.
I don't know what to do.. it's been 2 months and if anything, I love him more than anything... I don't know if he feels the same way but he told me he does love me or why else would he Skype me every night. I asked him is it the same way as before? he said I don't know. It feels different but yeah I love you.

I know i made the right decision... but at the same time.. I don't want to lose what we had and at the same time... I'm smart to know that i deserve better.. but what we had was special... he's my first love and i've never felt so much for someone before.. I just don't know what to do.. should I just stay by his side as friends and see where it takes me or let it go and never look back again..&nbs