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So there's this girl I met about a year ago before this event many of you may know, church camp. I met her a couple days before when I was helping load up some vans that were going up early with supplies. I had seen her before but didn'tknow much about her and I can remember one moment where I cracked one of my many jokes and she looked over shrugged up and gave me a twinkling smile. that was the first time I had seen her beautiful blue eyes, and from then on I was hooked. I had to find out who this girl was. needlessto say I did, and the whole week at church camp we had gotten pretty close and started holding hands and such during late night devos and started something at crafts one day that later became a trend with us. We made notebooks for eachother ans wrote little letters foe each day and agreed to give them to each other after camp. I realized thatfirst week that she was indecisive between guys and had become upset a couple times. So cut to the weeks and months after, and we're writing letters and giving them to each other every time we see each other and it seemed good except for her occasional waver where it seemed she was flirting with other guys. Then we stopped talking for a week which was weird, and one day when we went to church she pulled me aside and gave me the letter that I was waiting for, for a week, and told me that she needed to know ehat I felt because of her ex trying to get back with her, so we got close. Then everything screwed up. Later on I learned that she didn't like me too much after camp and it was really just a camp crush. We didn't talk for a long time till recently, about two months before camp. She kept flirting with me and I wouldn't flirt back because she had been indecisive in a major way twice, cutting me off. Anyway, we went to camp and I was totally keeping her away and then I started to like her again. Now she's acting into me and still other guys. Im confused. We're talking a little now but I'm worried