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I'm going into 10th grade and girls still won't talk to me. Last year I thought it was some kind of sick joke when this girl told me that we should hang out! I hadn't had a real conversation with a girl my age from 5th to 8th grade. It kinda started in 4th cause people judge you by your weight then dramatically. In fifth grade, it still happened, but when I got to sixth grade, no one cared about my weight. What they cared about was the fact that I was 2 years behind socially. I talked to guys, but by this time lack of interaction by EITHER gender started making me have one sided conversations. a typical "conversation" between me and one of my 2 friends would be me telling them about an article I read. My tone of voice became extremely antagonistic. It got worse as lower acceptance led to lower social experience and it kept spiraling downward. you can probably imagine how strange it was when last year, I met this girl who was nice to me (and by nice I mean if I said something to her she would say something back), because I hadn't had a single female friend in 5 years, I assumed she liked me. When you're like me, you'll take anyone you can get, unless they're an absolute jerk. So I started liking her and that really degraded our friendship. I lost that opportunity as a good friend (or something more) and I'm back where I was at the beginning of this year: afraid to talk to any girl because she would probably claim I was harassing her. Maybe "normal" isn't the right word... more like I want to be able to talk to people. My situation was/is pretty bad... like I said I thought she was joking when she said she wanted to hang out. Also, its not just verbal. It used to take about 5 seconds to hand a pencil to anyone of the opposite gender because they feel the need to take it in a way so that our hands don't touch. Forget "friend hug" that never happened to me until last year, but the experience was so foreign to me that it seemed like some kind intimate contact. Thoughts?