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I have no friends, no family, and quarantine has made me really lonely. Having virtual friends can only go so far. I need someone to physically be there.

Out of loneliness I’ve been dating this toxic woman for a few months. All we do is fight when we’re together. I even have a feeling deep down that she’s cheating on me. She has a male bestie she goes on Skype with every night. Even has the mans grad picture store in her room. Sometimes she does nice things for me. I have strong feelings for her, but I know it’s not real love. The thought of her with another man makes me go crazy!!!

I know I’m an idiot for staying with her, but I can’t help how I’m feeling. It’s like she’s my drug. I can’t get enough and it’s destroying everyday. Also, I don’t have access to health care so I can’t even seek mental help. Any suggestions?

For the most part, I can say I’m happy in my relationship. Things are going good and we’re getting serious. She does so much for me. She just bought me really expensive Christmas gifts, and wakes up every morning to prepare my daily meals. Because I’m a vegan bodybuilder. Everything is going great so far, except one major issue.

I’m very uncomfortable with the company she keeps around. All her male friends want her (she said so), and all her female friends are cheating on their husbands. This raises a lot of alarms. I’m not judge mental but why would she have those kind of friends? They must something in common.

People often think of me as a loser because of this, which honestly pisses me off at times.

The reason I don't date is that I have too many flaws. I still live with my parents, I'm not in my desired career yet, I'm very reclusive, and my mental health is a disaster. I feel like dating requires me to really open up to someone about everything, and I'm not ready to do that. I also want to have a stable income on my own, my dream is to be able to support a family with my income and maybe have a housewife (I'm old fashioned).

As for sex, I'm abstaining from it out of respect for my future lover to be. I'm not religious, I just think that's best. My brother often picks on me for being a virgin, I don't see how his criticism holds any weight since his marriage ended when he decided to cheat on his wife with hookers on Facebook and his child support looks like a shopping list. He's so driven by sex but look where it got him.

So all in all, I'm just not ready to fall in love yet.

My family is riddled with mental illness, addiction, narcissism, and abuse. Nobody is genuine, everyone lies, cheats, and steal. Everyone is out for themselves, every time someone is nice they're most likely trying to get something out of you. The only genuine people I actually trust are 2 of my cousins and my 16 year old nephew.

As the youngest sibling, I was treated as everyone's power high. My brother used to beat the shit out of me, my sister would call me awful things, I was viciously bullied in school by students and teachers, and my mother is verbally and sometimes physically abusive and neglectful.

I kept it bottled up because I didn't want to be yelled at more, but the weight of it all was getting too much. After days of chain smoking I finally opened up to my mother, and she did exactly what I feared.

She flexed your struggles, one-upped my depression, compared me to others, used my guilt as a weapon, put me down, and made it all about her. She even said "You will NEVER feel as depressed as I do, and shame on you for putting that on me."

This is the reason my siblings turned to hard drugs, and I turned to food, alcohol, and cigarettes for comfort. I am now fully convinced that my mom is the main source of my depression. My family is a sinking ship, and if I don't abandon it I'll just sink with it.


I have a job and hopefully next year I'll be able to get my driver's license, buy a car and rent my own place. Once it happens, I'm disappearing. I'll move out in the middle of the night, and I'll only leave a long note of things I wanted to open up about to my mother but never could do it in person. I'm not telling her where I'm living and getting a new phone so she can't call me, only contact me through messenger. I also want to start seeing a therapist for the help I've been needing.