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I've been struggling with the break up. I feel as if I'm over her and our relationship. But not over how she abused how much I cared and how she tried to manipulate me.
Like, she knew I still had a thing for her after we separated, and once she couldn't find someone a part of her religion that she really liked. She came back to me. She strongly stressed she wanted my friendship but kept saying how she had feelings for me but couldn't act on them.
Once she knew I loved her she kept finding new ways to twist her words to say she couldn't marry or date me without me converting. I tried her church but it wasn't for me. Then she said we could date but would have me go to church with her.
I for some reason asked her to Marry me and she said she'd accept after her mission.
During her mission, she broke us up, but when I sent her a letter to fix the relationship, she viewed it 14 times before replying. With only converting pamphlets and shit like that.
She then dropped me when I refused and told me she moved on.
Now she's engaged to someone else.
I'm still heartbroken. But I'm more upset I lost myself so much for this girl when I don't think she loved me like she claimed to. Or even at all.
Is this normal? To not be over someone's actions towards you?

I dated a religious girl for a few years while I myself was athiest. For the first 8 months or so the religious stuff never came up. But she started asking about it. She pressured me into trying her church because she kept saying we couldn't be together if I didn't convert. I didn't like it, and I gave it several tries and she tried to convince me to have missionaries talk to me.
She eventually said that she would try to make our relationship work. But she decided to break up with me months later.
Within 3 months she started dating someone else and is currently engaged.
I'm heartbroken. It feels like she never loved me. That she only wanted to convert me.

I dated this girl for about 5 months towards the end of high school. As well as we got along, she broke us up because she was Mormon and didn't think we'd work out since I would not convert.
After two years and a few intense conversations where the last one she said I didn't have a place in her life, she reached out to me saying that her holy spirit told her to reach out to me.
After a few weeks of talking, she informed me she was going on a mission and we wouldn't be able to be together. At that point I told her I had loved her and she instead tried to keep me around.
We talked though our issues and I tried her church but I told her I still wouldn't convert. She told me she loved me and she'd try to make it work. We dated for another 4 months, and before she left I asked her to marry me.
She went in her mission and pushed me away and eventually ended things. I wrote her 3 times trying to fix our relationship, and during the second time, she told me she changed and she couldn't be with me. I told her she only believes that because of the mission and the environment she's in. She agreed and said I knew her better than anyone and I knew her heart.
She wouldn't acknowledge me after she came back and when I ran into her she blamed everything on me and she walked off on me.
Someone mentioned that she was in love with me and she was willing to break the rules of her religion to be with me. But being on that mission reaffirmed her beliefs and she broke up with me.
Cause now she's engaged and it's been 7 months since she came home.
Did going on that mission put her where she was supposed to be? Or something?
I just don't understand why we got back together if nothing was gonna change.
I'm still in love with her and this is eating me alive.