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Growing up, my father was very neglectful and cold, and whenever he did decide to pay attention to me, he would terrorize me. When my mother would go to work and left me at home with him, I was never fed, bathed, or shown affection. If I tried to get him to notice me, he would scream at me to “Go away!” or “Leave me alone!” I would tell my mother all the time what he would do, and she never did anything about it and still stayed with him, no matter what. Mind you, I was 4-6 years old when I had to endure this bullshit. At an age I couldn’t take care of my own needs. Also, this is all just a small portion of what he did.

As I got older into my teenage years from the age of 9, things have changed, but he kept his neglectful ways. My mother was still with him, and she would always say “I know he doesn’t show it, but he does love you.” She just didn’t want to leave because, yet again, she was dependent. I will admit that I had a terrible attitude, but it was mostly because I hated my family. I still do. I hated the fact that I had to fucking deal with a father who didn’t give one single shit about me or well-being, and a passive aggressive mother who let him do whatever he pleased. He would drink beer every fucking day, and whenever he got drunk, he acted like an intolerable, blunt asshole who would mock and make fun of me for everything. I was sick and fucking tired of it. Seriously.

Okay, GAG, what do you think that I should do?

Hi, I'm looking for some advice please 😊 I have recently broken up with my now ex boyfriend, due to a gambling problem, drinking issue, questioning my worth, financial issues and his negative attitudes and behaviours. He wanted me back and is saying he will make changes, I know he has quit gambling, not drinking as much and he's saying all the things I want to hear and have in my future and would do anything to have me back and saying it's me or no one.
I've been asking for the last 5 weeks since we broke up to give me space so I can decide if I miss him, he can implement these changes he is speaking of and I can have some alone time to decide if I do really miss him and want to try again. Thoughout these 5 weeks he has smoothered me, begging to take him back and telling me there is no one else, he will never date again, he wants to marry me, have a family and will support me and be a better person. he's even offered relationship counselling and said he will do anything to make it work.
Two days ago I said no let's call it a day I'm done I'm not willing to give it another go, his pushing for an answer was exhausting and it's was pushed me to say no I'm done. He has then done everything I asked yesterday stopped the messaging and then sent a quick one this morning to say he'd removed me from social media not to be petty or vindictive but for his own mental health. Since he's done that, I regret it he's never left my head, I can't stop crying and I feel sick. What should I do?