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I had some family issues that affected me. I had a boyfriend with whom I broke up because in puberty I realized I never wanted to have sex with him. He was a great guy, I still regret having hurt him. After that I rushed into a relationship with a really hot guy I had deep emotions to, we dated a year, he abused me and humiliated me but I didn't realize it back then. I wanted to give my virginity to someone I'd eventually marry. But I gave it to him in hopes he'd connect with me more because I really wanted to marry him. He dated me a year. Had some kind of one time entering me sex and broke up with me. Now I am dating the love of my life, my actual future husband. He knows I wasn't 100% virgin but no details because I felt so much regret I couldn't tell him all. My friends have married their first kisses or first sexs. I regret not telling my boyfriend but it's visible he prefers not to know the details. Also I hate myself for ever being with that jerk ex. Am I a bad person?

The relationship between me and this guy was a bit like films, I told him that I like him in 2015 and our relationship ended in 2015 the same year because he blocked me on Facebook and it was the only way I could talk to him as he changed his school. He used to talk to my friend as he likes her as well and our friendship ended the cause of him.
After a year of this I did a fake Facebook account and talked to him because I wanted to know why he blocked me and why he ended everything in one night? .. But I guess he knew that it was me or my friend.. I kept on talking to him from that fake account for about two months then I told him that I like another guy and he said "you will forget me" and I said that I forgot u form ages and I blocked him.
After a while he did a fake account and he told me that he loves me but I knew that it was him and he was playing games.. Then this year he added me on my instagram and tried to make me forgive him, I forgave him and we talked as friends then he explained everything about why he left me but I still don't know if he said the truth he also telling me that he wants to marry me in the future !! And wants to have children from me as well!! And he keeps flirting with me and asking me about our wedding and marriage life.. Do u think he loves me or he is just playing games?