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So my mom wants me to have a girlfriend, she’s been hounding me about it for years.
There’s a few reason it’s never happened.

•I’m shy
•I’m not ready for a relationship, at all.
•I like older women

Once I turned 18, I joined this local dating site...
since I’m 18, I can only meet women who are 18+

I've started talking to a few women
I've asked them about eventually hooking up
So many women rejected me because of my age.
Except 4 women.

They’re aged 25 - 55.
We’ve been talking & I’ve told them I wanted to end up losing my virginity, but I’m very patient,
so I’m not rushing.
i was just letting them know my intentions.

•The lady who’s 55 lives closest to me
She told me I was too young for her, but she really looks good for her Age.
This lady may end up telling me off because she just absolutely wasn’t going for it, but she was interested in seeing more pictures of me, so you never know what could happen.

•Another girl I’ve been talking to is 37.
She’s actually ok with my age, she’s just further away.
If I could get to her house my virginity may have already been lost.

•Another woman I’ve spoken to is 45.
She’s also close to me.
she's not ok with my age, but she hasn’t exactly
pushed me away.
She told me that we could talk & she’d see where it went, but for now it’s a no (to sex)

•The last woman is 25
the youngest, this woman actually seems pretty shady.
She was quick to talk about meeting up & sex so I may end up blocking her, it’s too risky.

My moms 46
if she found out I was talking to one of these women
would she be disappointed in me?