He say I pushed him away with constant questioning and pushyness?

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I feel horrible. My grandmother died recently I warned him I am a emotional mess right now. But i never disrespected him he is my guy friend of 4 months working to be in serious relationship but say I pushed himaway
He say I pushed him away with constant questioning and pushyness?
so here my apology:
I am so sorry I didn’t mean it that way it’s just that we are long distant and we are so far I get concerned or worried and ask questions. I am not insecure or it’s not that I don’t trust you it’s just that long distance is so new for me. I didn’t mean anything I said I didn’t mean it that way and I hope you forgive me I don’t want to do any thing to jeoprodize our friendship or if theirs more. I am sorry you mean a lot to me and our friendship and as of more I am ready, yes and I’ll take a risk for u.

no reply.
so next morning; morning sexyyyyyy I have gave things thought and I am so sorry I wish that I can take things back that I said I wish I could of done and said things differently and I feel so embarrassed u were so patient it’s me every up and down. I’m so sorry I am never like this from beginning to now. I don’t want to push u away I want to pull u towards and and and 😏 lmao no but really major promise it will never happen again. ( added a joke)

so no reply (hours later)
so I say, can we please have a heart to heart conversation to clear things up maturely” he says
“Yeah when I have time don’t really have time to talk about shit I’ve already made but when I free up yeah sure “

Truth is I was so confused. He said he wanted one thing but his actions showed another. I initiated most contact. I am the one that say hru? Wyd? How is your day checking on his feelings. He stopped calling me beautiful he stopped asking how I feel. I was there for this man emotionally and he say he is here but he’s not. I am new to relationships never ever had one before and he’s 8 years older. I did not mean any of the things I said when I made him upset this day all I asked was DO YOu have feelings for me yes or no? He did not want to answer
He say I pushed him away with constant questioning and pushyness?
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