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My bro is 19 and his girlfriend is 18, they were in same school and in a relationship since 3 years. Whereas me 23, am still single and never been in a relationship. I feel sad. I feel jealous sometimes. I've had one heartbreak from the guy I met on bumble I lost my virginity to thinking it was a relationship but neither of us confessed and he dumped me in 2018. I was over it in 2019. But I hooked up with many from bumble. Now I'm single and not hooking up, secretly yearning for a serious relationship. So I was in girls school and girls college, so no contact with boys. I feel low. I don't wanna be single and I just don't know if anyone will date me at age 23. I just feel too low :(

So in the beginning I was trying to get over someone and wasn't sure if i was ready for a relationship. I told the guy and he said we can be friends. We sexted a few times before we met. Long story short we went on a date, he would stare me in the eyes and not break eye contact which I thought was weird.. On our third date he did that as well and then would tell me he can't control himself.. that same date he told me he loved me. He told me he loved me everyday and i felt pressured to say it back because I was trying to figure out my feelings. He reassured me that he wants to be apart of my mess and wants to make it work between us.

His family were very eager for our relationship, they got me a key to their house, wanted me to wear comfy clothes, talked about how they would have a small space for my clothes one day etc. Then on my birthday we had sex and i lost my virginity to him. We did other things prior to that. In the beginning he put effort into the relationship, got me a care package, we both met each others families. We video called most of the time. It felt like I was pulling teeth with him. Granted he worked a lot and had to help his family. There would be times where he didn't work and he didn't come see me. There seemed to be a lot of secrets with his job and his mom. He ended up breaking up with me because he wasn't willing to compromise over something small