We never really had a formal relationship per se for that reason, so we never were a couple, we were more like good friends. But even being good friends we went out on dates 5 times and made out each time. I think he had the hots for me and he knew I had the hots for him as well. Since we actually never had a relationship or committed or anything formal, he ghosted me twice just one year and a half ago.
When we were in better terms and in those 5 dates I had with him 2 out of those 5 times we had sex in his apartment. I lost my virginity to him but since we neer were a couple maybe he just wanted to fool around with me even if we knew for 5 years, I was not a lady who he recently met. I knew that he did not want any of a relationship with me but I dont know but each time I see the guy in person I was happy to see him and felt butterflies in my stomach.