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I read that in his messages between him and his friend the girl he slept with before me did nothing for him and he struggled to remain hard with her.

People I’ve slept with outside my ex took 10-15 mins to finish first time we had sex. I didn’t notice them struggling to remain hard but I’m sure she never did either. For them taking that long and not seeming madly into that. Did I do nothing for them too?

This same ex also used to take 30 mins at the start to finish with me but never siad this about me in messages. But I really wasn’t into sex then when I did get into it he took only 5 mins.

Have people felt this way about me? Or have I over through and been scarred since reading that?

Me and he are in a serious relationship since 2 years now ( his family knows about me and my family, except my dad knows about him). He is most of the times too rude for no reason like he asks me my salary and I asked him that if he loves me then why does he see me so low? he finally confessed to me that He has trust issues and is unable to still open up because he said - " I am scared, I am unable to express because of my ex "

I have trust issues too because he follows random girls on insta and cuts my calls abruptly as he has two jobs. He explained me that he also cuts his mom's calls as he has two jobs and that I shouldn't feel bad.

When he said me that he would have slapped me if he was there in person because someone from a fake account texted a girl he followed on instagram ( he just follows one girl on instagram) - " he is cheating on you ", it got me on my nerves ( I felt too bad thinking he is sounding like he would abuse me). I couldn't sleep all night after that conversation over call.

I have finally expressed to him that I was emotionally abused by dad since childhood like him tont, belittling me, sometimes physically abuse like slapping ( my bro protects me and mom) and I don't know what it is like to have a family and a dad because dad always went out with friends and no time at all for kids. This was the only thing I hid from him since 2 years and I was like now he knows everything about me and I'm not hiding anything. That's how I started to earn on my own. He said me he'd protect me ( he started behaving like Mr prince charming suddenly) etc but I was like not needed, my bro takes care of me and mom.

Being friends withb ex sucks yet i become one. Recently i fight him again and he told he dont want me but in case i need anything i can always go to him. I actually called to tell him i dont want to be his friends and he said he will stay away from me then. But then i burst into tears, become very emotion that im gonna lose him and started bringing back our past. He was no i dont want to be with you. At some point of time he said he will call me 2 days later. But up until now he didn't call me. He snapchat with me, viewing ig story but not texting. All he asked 2 days later was are you awake (for him to call) but i slept so i replied no. The convo is left hanging there. Now you tell me should i call or should i let go of what happen? Whats on his mind? He wants me to make the call because I want him or is he trying to stay away? If he wants to stay away then why he is still seeing my ig and snapchatting me? Your opinion matters before i make a wrong move again like previous call