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guy friend of 2 years eft a few days ago. he put it off for a while and he tried to get me to ask him to stay but i couldn't... last time he tried was the last i saw him. he didn't even say good bye but left me a note saying he's been in love with me since we met and a whole bunch of explanations about miscommunication and reasons he never said anything. it all makes sense and i know how difficult things were especially because i've always been very uncomfortable with expressing feelings and feeling them. i never told him i'm in love with him too. i know its probably kind of too late to be together bc he left and probably decided to move on bc i never gave any indication i'm interested in more, but i still want to tell him how i feel. i know some of you will say i should leave him be but its important to me to tell him so i've decided. i'm going to take a trop to see a friend and on my way i'm stopping in his home town. ask him if we can talk. if he says no i have a letter to give him he can read it or not in his own time.

i'm tempted to just go to his house and if its a bad time i can stop by on my way back. we've never been good at organizing things by phone and i'm concerned hell think its a trick and not show up, whereas seeing me seems to have a calming effect most of the time... however if its not one of those times if he's hurt/ defensive, and i show up he might be angry hell refuse to talk, so I don't know.

he did show up at my house without telling me and walked in without even knocking to tell me how he felt, so i wouldn't technically be doing anything worse especially since ill knock.

honestly id just like to get this done in as few steps as possible. if i just show up he's there or not and i can give the letter if not. ill probably never see him again so i feel like i can afford to do one big thing once. plus if he actually has been in love he should be glad to see me-no? i also feel like its braver to just show up. i want to BE there. not ask.