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As I got into my aunts car yesterday afternoon, as she was picking me up from school which isn't normal but my mom was sick and my "dad" couldn't pick me up, she began to tell me that my "dad" wasn't my real dad. And since a baby, as far as I currently know, I have called him 'bainy' and my mom has always told me it was because I couldn't pronounce the word "dada". So for sake of not confusing anyone I will now refer to my "dad" as bainy. Back to what happend, my aunt then went on to tell me that bainy is a lot better than the, in her words, "asshole" that is my real dad. Now at this point I legitamtely felt nothing but only because I had a suspicion that he wasn't because of past events; me and him having different last names when my two little brothers have his last name, I look nothing like him, I never called him dad, and most recently me and my mom had been fighting so I tried to run away to my cousin's house and the cops pulled me over on my bike because it was like 1am in the morning and when he came to get me they asked him if he was the step-dad. So then I was dropped off at my grandmother's house awaiting her to bring me to my house, and so I called my cousin and talked to her, she's 21, and I told her all that had happend and I told the two of my friends and so now I have been crying my eyes out for the last two days. And I usually don't cry. So now My mother and bainy have no fucking clue that I know he's not my dad, and I honestly can't look at him without wondering, "why wouldn't my real dad want me?" and then I start to almost cry again. And today me and my mother went shopping and she's acting like nothing has goddamn happend, because in her world nothing has but I have to sit here and not be able to believe a word that comes out of her stupid mouth. And I feel like I fucking hate her, what do I do?