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tl;dr- considering keeping in contact with an ex im still in love with. broke up last December, talked once every month since then.

I broke up with my ex a few days before Christmas last year. Basically I'm still crazy about him but I had reasons to end the relationship (he was a good partner, he did everything to try and make it work- it's my seriously ugly personal issues). Since we broke up I've just been obsessing about it but I never showed. He sent a long message on new year's day greeting me and telling me he still loves me. I replied and that convo didn't last long. About last week of January, he called me and we talked for a while. After that call, he sent a lot of messages asking if we could still make it work. I love him a lot but I was so sure that getting back together isn't the right thing to do so I stuck with my decision. I blocked him on Facebook after that because it became harder for me to stop thinking about him. I'd visit his profile a lot. Just two days ago he sent messages on Instagram but he unsent them. Then last night he called and we talked for a few hours. It was a really nice talk and I felt instantly better. It included saying I could call him anytime I need someone to talk to. He said he's still waiting and hoping for something between us. He understands why I ended things with him which I didn't expect because he really didn't do anything for me to act that way.

Anywaynot a day goes by that I don't think about him and I miss him a lot so I've thought about considering calling him every now and then. Would that be unhealthy? I didn't say anything to him about getting back together. We just agreed that we can call each other anytime we want, and I do want to. I just dont know what's right or wrong about this anymore.

I’M TALKING ABOUT THE TERM FOR FEMALE DOG. I personally dont like the word and use it very very rarely. I noticed i called an anon one the other day because he was so rude but I was extremely disappointed in myself afterwards. I hardly ever use the word and cringe when others do. I can't bring myself to say the word out loud and probably only said it because it was by text. I honestly distance myself from girls who constantly refer to eachother as the B word. Thats not a term of endearment to me. Call me by my name or gtfo. And why refer to yourself as “bad bxtches”? What happened to the early 2000s “bad/sexy chick”? Lol is it that outdated? As for guys who call their moms and ex girlfriends that, I tell myself I refuse to date him. He could be the nicest guy but if he's already calling other women that, I’m sure i’ll be called that by him someday. Also, whats with the guys who say “Ay yo meet my B”. Can't you just say “This is my girlfriend.” And in music as well, I honestly prefer the radio version because youtube and everything else just wears the B word out. It ruins the song for me. So yea, i just dont like the word. Many use it and thats on y'all. But i just have no respect for someone who does unless it was genuinely a slipup or random occasion. Still, I dont think i could stick around after that term. I tend to pray for forgiveness when I cuss anyways. I don't know its just always been a habit. But yea although I hardly ever use it, i couldnt respect myself for having said it the other day. My soul wanted to leave my body lol. I don't know there's just so many other creative words... why does the B word and even that disgusting C word have to be used so much
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