Search Results: being an amazing girlfriend

I've been with my boyfriend 9 months. He's sweet, laid back and does everything in his power to make me happy. But I feel like the most shallow person right now... Because I'm just not feeling it between us.
And to be honest, I obsessed over him the first 5 months because of how amazing our sex was.
but his kisses are always sloppy and just... Makes me want to push him away from me. Sometimes I do. And the more I focus on it,. I just can't think of having sex with him anymore.
i kept pushing for him and I to really be something together, I kept thinking that I'm not going to be that girl that breaks the nice guys heart and that I'm going to stand by my man through it all...
I kept asking him to be my work out buddy but he never follows through... And though he is emotionally there with me, I feel like we don't match physically. (Even though the sex was/is great) I just can't push myself to have sex with him if not everything is good in my head...
Lateky he tells me he loves me and I mumble it back pretending that I'm messing around... I do love him but not in the way I think I should.
i feel like he's lazy and since I'm the type of girl that makes her boyfriend her whole life. I just don't think he fits. I have gained so much weight with him... I have tried to lose weight and get healthy on my own while still being his girlfriend but it must be a mental thing for me... It's bringing me down and I don't know how to adjust my way of thinking..
i keep thinking that I want an active go get em kind of guy... That's still keeps to himself. Maybe I'm asking for too much?
I think our needs our different and he tries so hard but I don't know what's worst.,. Telling him his best isn't good enough or never being completely satisfied with him for the rest of my life...
my morals tell me to remain loyal and stand by him... But my desires tell me at this age of (20) I need to find myself first before I promise my