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Here's the backdrop. He's 42 and I'm 31. We've been together for almost four years now. He got out of a nasty divorce with a crazy woman about 2 years before we started dating.

He's definitely got some baggage from it.

I definitely have my own, also. To be more precise, they're alcoholic-narcissistic-mentally/emotionally/verbally/physically abusive, daddy issues. You can see where we'd have some issues.

I was very depressed last year, and finally hates myself enough to seek therapy and medication to stabilize my suicidal thoughts, flashbacks, and nightmares... Plus many more.

My boyfriend dealt with a lot of self doubt and through my own pain and suffering, I wasn't able to hear his about my lack of attention and love to him. So we end up having a pissing contest when we fight, about who has had more pain and who's feelings deserve validation. Bottom line, we both do.

I've been smoking pot to help with my depression and anxiety (yay Washington State!) and even though it's legal and we're able to buy it in stores (yeah, rad huh?), we still go through our grapevine because it's about $15-$20 cheaper a gram. We were going through a friend Bob* for quite a while until his sister *Jane, took over. My boyfriend found himself crushing on her because of his attraction to Latinas. she's Latina. And gorgeous. Well, here's the thing. Every time she texted him, he'd rush to answer it. He'd be replying to it and giggle, qnd smile. He lit up. He told me that he was going to erase all the texts because I was paranoid. But eventually, with enough prodding and me point blank telling him that he was acting the same way he did when we hooked up and that I wasn't stupid, he came clean about his attraction to her. And fantasied about having sex with her. And that she's "cool," and "fun to talk to." Last night she came over because she needed somewhere to hang out for a bit, and it was e