Depression and suicide

[justanotherguy445]

Suicide is one of the leading deaths of teens today. The world is so connected these days that the bullying, gossip, and abuse never stop. So many teens try to commit suicide everyday. Thankfully there are ways of getting help to those who need it. My story is probably nowhere near as bad as other people's but I feel like I should share mine.

When I was in 8th grade I was getting bullied a lot; this had been going on since I was 5 years old. My school is a very preppy school mostly rich kids you know and I'm one of them but I'm not a preppy one, I'm a geek/weirdo.

Anyway I didn't really have any friends till my 8th grade year. They let me in and accepted me for me and I love them for it. Sadly though things weren't so good at home; my brother had recently stolen from my family's business and had lost the trust of me and my parents. I was devastated because he was my older brother and I looked up to him. Back at school things got worse. After that my parents started becoming more strict on me which got me stressed about school and it snowballed from there.

But things did get better as I made more friends and I got a girlfriend which was my first girlfriend like ever. So I thought me and my girlfriend at the time were serious. So we got intimate if you know what I mean. After that she told me she loved me and the thing is I believed her. A week after we had sex I found out she cheated on me with a guy and a girl. I was completely devastated and after that I didn't trust anyone. Because I thought I would get hurt again.

I then started isolating myself from everyone and stopped talking all together. Then in December of 2014 I went to a site for suicidal teens to talk to other suicidal teens about their problems. That's where I met my best friend Michaela. We started talking on the site for a bit then moved to Skyping each other and snapchating. She lived 8 hours away from me, in Florida (I live in Mississippi). We became fast friends and I would stay up all night with her to make sure she was okay.When I first met Michaela I thought she was a preppy girl who didn't really care about me. But I was completely wrong and she forever changed my life. (If you're reading this I love you sis).

Sadly, all good things must come to an end (I think) and in April of 2015 she said she was going into her bad place again and needed space which she said by saying I can't really talk to you anymore. So that ends that. I don't know if she meant "I'm done talking to you" or she really does need space. I just know I'll be waiting for her when she's ready because I made a promise that I'd always be there for her and I intend to keep it.

Sorry if that took so long and was really boring. Now suicide isn't a laughing matter I still struggle with it to this day and those of us who are not depressed now are never really cured it's always there ready to creep back to us. So if you see signs of depression be a good person and see what's wrong be nice to em cause you never know if you'll save a life. If you your self are depressed I highly suggest you seek help from those you trust. You are an important person with so much talent. If you would like to share your story it would be a pleasure telling your story of depression.

[Hidden_P]

I've attempted suicide twice in the past. And although at the time and following couple of years after I wasn't happy I hadn't succeeded I am now. I have met someone wonderful who completely understands that dark place I've been in.

I never sought help until recently. For a lot of reasons I won't go into, I became extremely depressed and contemplating suicide and self harm. I would come home from work, get straight into bed and just cry for a couple of hours before I could face the evening. I am now on anti-depressants.
I always said I didn't need them and I was fine by myself but since being on them and temporarily coming off them, I've realised how much I do. I missed my appointment for my check up on them (had to call paramedics for my dad, thought he was having a stroke in bed), and I was doing fine. Until last week. All of a sudden, I suddenly dipped and I was back to being in tears. I know it's a matter of time until the self harm and suicidal thoughts return. As a result, the doctors have filled my prescription again with instructions I must not run out and if something happens again to get the prescription over the phone and have a check up the following week.

It's one of those things that it's easy to say "it's a cowards way out" "it's giving up" when you don't understand. Yes it's giving up because you can't take it anymore. When I tried, my mother was mentally abusing me (had been for 10 years) she wished me dead and called me fat from 5yrs old, my parents were fighting to the point I had to call police on them, they were divorcing, I was being bullied at school, I was struggling with eating disorders and I was 15. I cut to have control and then wanted to end it all. Since then, I've become a carer for my father instead of going into education, and I'm now 22 years old, 2 apprenticeships on and still paid £3.40 an hour (minimum wage is £6.50), working two jobs, and at college. I work days, evenings and weekends. I have 1 day off a week.

So yeah...

[BiffWebster]

there's really only one thing i've learned about the whole ending your life scenario. Right before the cliche catch phrase "everything happens for a reason" is thrown into your face by some guy trying to sound deep and understanding. The thing i learned is that some of us are just too damaged. Thats just the way it is. But im not going to interfere in someone's life decision,

[franklyspeaker]

Suicide to me is just to escape the fact or scared to face what it is in front of he or she. Generally, they are weak... mentally.

Obviously, life is suck. I know it is hard to eliminate the worst feelings, but it is not necessary to commit suicide. Suicide doesn't make or improve anything better. I personally think suicide is a childish and stupid action. Life is full of challenges and heartbroken, just keep a bright smile and walk through and overcome them.

[ShaeNielson]

This is one of the most ridiculous things I read today, congrats :)

[franklyspeaker]

Thanks ShaeNielson.

[kxera]

I really like your post! I've dealt with bullying most my life too. It pretty much stopped in high school for me luckily. I agree, suicide definitely isn't the answer. I tried to take my own life on several occasions when I was 10; I'm so glad I'm still here! There are so many amazing people I wouldn't have met and things definitely got better.

[kxera]

By the way, @justanotherguy445 I think you look like Brendan Fraser!

[snuggle_bunny88]

Sadly I know all about it. I've attempted suicide at least 2 times. I was bullied a lot at school and even more at home. I had only safe place and I could only go there on the weekends. I didn't have any friends until I was in my 2nd year of 7th grade. At school I was bullied for being ugly, tall and stupid. At home, my mother use to beat me because I was "difficult". Depression sucked me in and it still has a firm grip on me. These days I rarely get bad anymore.

[anon4122]

As someone who has attempted suicide I really hate the whole cultural outlook on the issue. I hate how everyone acts like a life ending is the worst thing ever. Why? because it might get better? Because of who it will Hurt? So what? do people seriously expect people who can see no future or use for themselves in life to keep marching on so there parents don't have to suffer. Quality of life should come first and there is a mental point where the quality is too bad to return from.

[RationalLioness]

I doubt every suicidal person has exhausted every single option in their life. If they have, then I don't care if they kill themselves nor do I think other people should.

But I highly doubt they have. Some of these people have mental illnesses which can be HELPED. But if someone simply wants to see what's on the other side? I think they should be free to off themselves.

[MrZylister]

"Suicide does not end the chances of life getting worse, suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better."

No it doesn't, it doesn't eliminate anything it ends it right then and there - You're dead. Personally, I don't think suicide is the way to go but quite honestly I can understand why some people want to cause their own demise - Life sucks.

[Despondency]

"Suicide does not end the chances of life getting worse, suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better."

But that's a total lie. Life doesn't get worse when you're dead. You're dead.

[justanotherguy445]

It means if you were to kill yourself then you can't get better because your dead it eliminates you getting better because you killed yourself without even trying to get help

[Despondency]

But no one tells you that what you think is the bottom today might just be nothing and tomorrow holds even greater horrors. There is worse than "worst" in many cases.

[mithramitzmittu]

I hope you are okay, my friend. I tryout my best to help those who need support in subjects like these. If you need help, I'm just one message away. <3

[DarkHumorRUs]

Well it does eliminate the chances of it getting worse. If you're dead how can it get worse?

[xXiTacoXx]

Grave robbers.

[ciciking22]

i really hope you are ok now...

suicide and depression are such a sensitive subject

i suffer from it

thank you for telling your story x

[Anonymous]

I'm having suicidal thoughts a lot lately.. psychiatrists don't really help...

[YourFutureEx]

So, are you okay now? If not, share with me.

[justanotherguy445]

No not really as I stated in my story I lost my best friend 😔 I miss her everyday and I just want my best friend back 😢 I can't really tell my mom hey mom met this girl online who I became friends with can we go to Florida and try to find her. it would be useless the only thing I do know is she goes to a Christian school and lives an hour outside Orlando that's all she ever told me I told her everything... I'm sorry I'm rambling it's just I wish she was here right now

[YourFutureEx]

It happens dude. I can understand. But don't lose your faith. Are your all chances gone? -No. But, you need to learn how to move on. Attachments will occur in our life as we all are humans and we have emotions but we need to be mentally fit, control our emotions as it's called as "survival of the fittest". Look at me, I was in love with a girl. You know what happened? -She passed away. I dreamt so many things with her, she too. But, whatever is gonna happen, will happen. After a few years, I am stable again because I realised that there is so much in life, we need to take most out of it as much as we can and live it up to it's fullest. Fate, destiny, karma. These are the three things which decide your life. Nobody knows your destiny. Your fate is in front of you. Now, it's time to do karma and change your life.

Stay strong and keep smiling. Good luck :)

[justanotherguy445]

Thanks man... I don't know if all my chances are there still they are so slim but thank you. I'm trying to keep smiling because I know she'd want me to. But I believe we carve our own destiny and sometimes things are out of are control. I'm sorry for your loss my friend

[YourFutureEx]

Thanks.
There are two ways in the life:
●Good way
&
●The better way.

It's up to us how we choose the path. I'm glad to hear the words depicting your optimism. Have a nice future ahead :) #HakunaMatata

[Nathand]

YAWN!!!

Only for attention.

[Christie_]

she killed herself