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im in a great dilemma. my boyfriend and i broke up because he cheated on me. he might sound like an asshole but trust me he's a really great boyfriend - other than when he cheated. for my birthday last February, he did so so so much for me. he bought me lots of stuff, brought me out for dinner, surprised me. he really put in a lot of effort to make me happy. so my concerns are:

if i wish him, what if he takes hours to reply because he's busy calling someone else or gaming? i would be damn hurt by it. im saying this because 1 week after the broke up, i missed him too much and texted him but he took hours to reply me bc he was busy gaming. and if it happens, it'll show that my birthday wish means nothing to him while it meant so much to me. I'll seem so pathetic and I'll be so hurt.
BUT, if he misses me, the birthday wish could make his day. and im scared that maybe he's looking forward to a wish? what if he gets hurt because i didn't send him one.

honestly i think that the chances of him taking hours to reply me bc he's busy is 80%. should i not send him one then? but he did so much for me...

Ex broke up me once a month ago.
He said I doubted him a lot but I had reasons and he treated me badly. He broke up with me before his birthday.

He came back again apologizing 3 weeks after asking for a second chance. I forgave him easily. He said he would take me on a date. We never went on one. However, he wanted me to come over for fun (sex). I asked if he wanted friends with benefits or relationship again. He said whatever I wanted, he wants to do everything with me. We became boyfriend and girlfriend again. So I go back as normal. He starts not texting me as much or calling, I'm doing all the arranging and driving to him. I ask him if there's something wrong. He says he doesn't feel the way we first started dating but had hope we can. He wants me to show him effort so the spark comes again. Eventually I feel like my efforts aren't working. So I asked him in person if he sees it. He says it's only been two days he doesn't know. At this point I've seen him everyday. I'm nervous because I feel like I'm not doing enough, so I'm clinging.

He eventually says he will never make me happy, that he's holding me back, he doesn't feel the same way, he's only holding on to hope. Few minutes earlier he was saying he had feelings and still loved me and didn't want me to go. Now he's saying he doesn't have hope, needs to push me away. I didn't believe him. I felt horrible and followed him and begging him to give me another chance. I asked him one last time to look me in the eye and asked him does he want me or not want me. He told me I'm making this hard and didn't look at me. I said that's not an answer. He looked at me and said he didn't want me.
So I sat there in shock and said wow, so this was all misleading and gave me false hope. He said he doesn't want to hear my mumbling. I said you never cared at all did you? He said can you just leave rudely. I said fine, can you at least walk me to your front door to open it. He said no you can walk yourself out. That broke my heart the most.